"I will be"

Chapter 16

After Training 12:00 a.m.

My unnis went to the dorm already, I don't know why but I wanted to be alone.

Even just for an hour.

It would be enough.

The recording went smooth and the dance practice too, everything today is

FLAWLESS.

Flawless in a way that nothing went wrong but it's not PERFECT.

It's not even close to perfection.

I am not degrading our group or something,

It's just that something is bothering me.

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MY HEART is confusing me.

If you thought I can forget about my family just because I don't talk about them, especially my parents, doesn't mean I don't miss them.

I need my oma right now.

It's a girl thing.

When you got a crush or confused you tell your mother, right?

I DON'T.

I just want her presence and that gives me peace of mind.

Oma and I are not very open to each other, yeah she's my oma but I'm focused on my studies and she with our company.

I'm melodramatic, I perfectly know that so you don't have to tell me.

I'm stressed,

DEPRESSED

This started when I got the messages.

*Bloogsh!*

I heard something fall down. I looked near the door, it's

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Kwon Hyun Su

and

Gi Kwang oppa.

they're laughing like they are friends for a long period time.

When they saw me I ignored them.

I don't need anyone, not now.

ESPECIALLY NOT BOTH OF THEM

 >_______________> Hyun Su

<______________< Gi Kwang oppa.

-.- me

"Oh, Yun Jae-ah!" Gi Kwang oppa called.

I bowed at him. and I just looked at Hyun Su.

"Why are you still here? We saw your groupmates walk home." Hyun Su asks.

"I am not sleepy yet." I lied.

"Ah, kureyo? So how did the recording go?" Gi Kwang oppa asks.

"It's smooth. The whole day is flawless." I assured them.

"Oh, that's nice." Gi Kwang oppa commented.

"*fake yawn* Ah, Sunbae, Hyun Su, I'll be going, byee!!" I told them in a fake joyful tone and left.

It's late November now and it's starting to snow.

I saw a roadside stall and man I miss these dishes.

But since I am in training I can't eat alot.

"Ajumma, give me a seaweed soup and soju." I told the ajumma.

I'm NOT supposed to drink becuase I have allergies sometimes.

But let's spoil myself today.

I sat on a corner and the ajumma gave me my order.

The seaweed soup is nice.

I just tasted the seaweed soup because all I want is soju but I'm shy if I just order an alcoholic drink.

I finished 4 bottles of soju.

WAAAHHHHH I feel light headed.

I payed the ajumma and I walk home.

As I walk I encounter some men walking.

Am I drunk?

Why am I seeing B2ST here?

Is B2ST Almighty on air?

"Yun Jae-ah!" I'm sure that's YeoSeob sunbae.

I straighten up my walk and acted as if I didn't drink soju.

I bowed at them.

But ofcourse I swiftly walk away.

If they know that I'm drunk....

Hehehe I don't know what will happen.

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As I reach our dorm, I boomed a loud laugh that made all my unnis to get out of their respective rooms.

"I don't care, eh-eh-eh-eh-err *hic* I don't care eh-eh-eh-eh-err, BOOYY *hic* I don't careee!!!!!" I sang out loud.

"Yu-yu-yu-yun Jae-ah, why are you drunk?" Yu Na unni asks. For the 1st time I hear her nervous tone.

"Druuuuuuunnkkkkkkk?!!!!! I'm noooooottttccchhhh drunkkk. I'm sho noootchhh drunkk." I told her.

I sat on our sofa and hiccup.

"I'm ssshhhhoooo shtuppeedddd, I'm shhhhoooooo shtuupiidddd in Loooovvvveee!" I sang again in my drunk mode.

So light headed.

It's like I've realesed my alter ego.

I looked at my unnis they look worried.

Wait.

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I made a promise to myself.

NEVER LET ANYONE WORRY ABOUT ME.

"Aaaisssshhhh, kweanchanayooooo*hic* go back to *hic* sleeepppp*hic* I'm suuppperrr fineee." I told them then my vision went black.

But I felt tears roll down my face.

BABO!

I promised not to let anyone worry about me anymore.

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A/N

a pathetic/melodramatic chappie.

hmmmmm....

I know this is another good for nothing one.

SOOO SOORRYYY

-Ms. Author

P.S. I hope to make it betterr