A world without you (BakuDeku)

Chapter 4| My reality was better than any dream

~5 months later~
Izuku pov
Katsuki and I have been together for 5 months now, I'm starting to worry though... why would he want me..? I'm a nerd! I'm a worthless idiot that can't do anything right! Hell, I'm even...blind. Why would he want me...

The worst part is... even though I'm so bad for him, he's still here! I don't need him! He needs me for some reason... I refuse to believe that I need him... cause I-I didn't... before... but now... DAMNIT!
"I'm such an idiot to think someone could love me! I'm fucking blind! He hated me for years! Why the fuck does he want me now!?" I slammed my hands on my desk in my dorm room. I started breaking down into sobs as I crumbled to the floor.

"W-why am I s-so worthless..." thank god these rooms are sound proof! I wrap my arms around my stomach and grip my shirt as I softly cry. Not even a second later I feel strong arms wrap around me, I smell an all to familiar smell... Katsuki...

"You're not an idiot, I am... do you think I'm only with you to make your life miserable..? I'm with you because I've been in love with you since the day I fell in that stream and you went to help me. You're not worthless, no one thinks that about you.... your stronger than anybody I've ever met and I'm shocked you haven't realized that yet... Izuku... do... do you love me..?" He asked as he cupped my face with his hands, I grabbed his hands.

"Do you feel like your heart will explode every time I say I love you? Do think ever moment of everyday that you don't deserve me? Do you make secret glances at me in class? Do you ever think what our lives would've been like if I wasn't blind..? Would you still have confessed that you loved me..? Cause I think those things every single day, and I can't stop. Every time you touch me, I feel like I'm in heaven because you are the one thing I've wanted for years! Do you know how many times I wished I wasn't blind so I could see every time you blushed or smiled! That smile was one of the only reasons why I didn't kill myself in middle school, and I can admit it now I came really close one time. No hero came there to save me, the only thing that saved me was thinking that I might never see your smile again! I love you it hurts! If something were to happen to you! I-I couldn't! I-I *sobs*" I couldn't stop the tears from falling as the words left my lips. Katsuki pulled me into a tight hug as he whispered softly in my ear.

"P-promise me y-you won't die! P-promise m-me!" I sobbed as I crawled into his lap.
"I promise. I promise I won't die." I hugged him tight as the words escaped his lips. After I calmed down I kissed his forehead softly, got off his lap, grabbed hand and pulled him onto the bed.
"I don't know about you, but I'm tired and I want my favourite pillow with me." I smirked as I spoke, I could hear him chuckle as he flopped down next to me on the bed. I buried my face in his chest and breathed in that amazing smell, new campfire wood with spice and a little caramel. I was half asleep, I had no control over my words. All I did was speak the truth.

"I'm gonna marry you someday Katsuki... we're gonna have 5 kids and a dog... we're gonna have the best life... you, me, and our 2 boys and 3 girls...your gonna be the best dad... and pro hero..."

I was going to dream land and the last thing a heard is something I'll never forget as long as I live.

"...I'd like that... a lot actually.......you're so weird Izuku, but that's why I love you... I don't like to dream, because it's never going to be as amazing as my life is now....... I don't know about you, but I don't want that to change... Izuku... I want to start that now... I want to spend the rest of my life with you, our 5 kids and our dog... Will you marry me?"

And with that, I fell asleep... but when I got to my dream, it wasn't as amazing as it used to be... I then realized... it because...

my reality was better than any dream

A/N: That was shorter than expected... anyway I really love this chapter surprisingly! I hope you all enjoyed this chapter and I hope you have/had an amazing day. Love y'all~ bye!

-Beanie

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