It will hurt so bad when my friends leave me. Soon they'll get tired of me and leave, right? They won't be with me forever. It'll hurt so fucking much when my boyfriend leaves too. He'll end up liking someone else soon enough. A friend told me he (my bf) thought my shyness was cute. Well, it's not really shyness. Its just me suppressing my feelings, closing myself off from the world, and being way too reserved. Besides, it's only a matter of time I lose my shyness around him and get comfortable around him. What's so cute about me then? My fucking frizzy ass hair? My acne? MY FUCKING STOMACH??? MY ARMS THAT IVE BEEN COVERING UP FOR YEARS JUST SO I CAN IGNORE THE FACT THAT I ABSOLUTELY HATE THEM WITH ALL OF MY BEING ALONG WITH THE REST OF MY BODY?!!?!??
Soon enough I'll have to tell all of them about my eating problems. Then they'll leave thinking I'm too weird. They'll think I'm doing it for attention. They'll leave. He will find a better girl. A girl that is comfortable hugging him. A girl that can hold hands with him. A GIRL THAT ACTUALLY FUCKING ACCEPTS HERSELF AND LOVES HERSELF AND HAS BARELY TO NO INSECURITIES
i cant fucking do this anymore. with all of this shit going on in my head and my grandparents falling apart is gonna tip me over the edge. itll make me do something that ive been too much of a pussy to do when i was 10. ill fucking end it
Edit: whoa m8 my period must have been wildin sksksksksksk
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