Just Cant Stay Away ( ezria fanfiction)

Happy Miserable Birthday

"Happy birthday!!" I heard someone scream into my ear. I was too tired to open my eyes to see who it was. "Come on, wake the hell up" he was laughing. I opened my eyes, it was Holden. I smiled and gave him a peck on the lips. He pulled away smiling and went to pour us some coffee.

"Why are you awake so early?" I said as he handed me my cup. "I wanted to be up before you so I could make you breakfast." All I could do was smile and say 'thank you'. He was so thoughtful. First he offered to help me move out of Rosewood, and now a year later he's making me breakfast for my birthday. I really wanted to tell him I loved him, but I wasn't a liar, well not anymore. He's said it many times before, but I don't think I could ever truly love anyone ever again. I did once before, but that didn't work out so well. Ezra was my everything, but I wasn't his. After he was shot, we had a slip. I hated myself for it, but it was the perfect goodbye. Holden is a good guy, and I want to love him, I do. I'm just not sure if I'm ready to say those 3 words yet. I don't want to be Aria the Liar anymore. Everything will play out the way it's supposed to.

After breakfast, Holden said we were going shopping. 'Shopping for my birthday' I thought 'the best gift ever'. I picked out my clothes that I wanted to wear, and went to take a shower. "Do you care to join?" I winked at Holden as he ran towards me smiling. He kissed my nose and carried me into the bathroom. He began to kiss my neck as the steamy water fell onto our heads. It was hot, but not scorching, it was perfect. He pushed me against the shower tiles, and gazed deep into my eyes. "I love you" he whispered. I stared at him for a few seconds, and then began kissing him, hoping he didn't realize the awkward pause that had just taken place.

While walking out of the bathroom, I stopped and looked around our apartment. It was a little weird how much it reminded me of Ezra's. Holden and I even had some dates like the ones me and Ezra had- ordering Chinese food and watching old movies. I never thought much of it, but on Ezra's birthday, I found myself watching It Happened One Night. I know, it sounds pathetic. Its not like I chose this life, which I kinda did. I never thought about how life would be if Ezra and I ended the way we did. Its been a year and I'm still trying to convince myself that I have no feelings for him, but deep down inside, I know that they are still there.

As we drove to the mall, I thought about Rosewood. I wondered how my parent and Mike were doing. I wondered about the girls- Hanna , Spencer, and Emily. I missed them, but in all honesty, I was terrified to even visit Rosewood. I didn't want to run into Ezra, besides, I loved living in Los Angeles.

"Aria, are you coming?" Holden asked laughing. Did I really black out the whole way here? I got out the car and tried not to look confused. "Yeah, of course" I said faking a smile. I grabbed Holden's arm as we walked out of the parking lot and entered the mall."Whoa" I was shocked at how big the food court was. There were like 30 different restaurants to choose from.

As we walked through the food court, I studied all the people. I know it makes me sound like a creep, which I'm not. Its just a weird habit I have. They were all strangers, of course. Which made it really weird that I seen some girls that look exactly like Hanna, Emily, and Spencer. I slightly laughed at them, causing Holden to laugh when I told him. Then all of a sudden, nothing was funny anymore.

Authors Note

Sorry this chapter is really short. Its my first story, so please vote and comment so that can know what needs to be fixed or added. Also, comment on my profile some story ideas if you want. Thx :-)