Special thanks to V. Dharma Teja and M. Satya Akhil for the support and help.
"Every breakup has three versions, the one the boy says, the one the girl says and the one that really happened."
The Girl(Swapna)’s view:
Swapna is a normal middle class who was brought up by her parents with so much love and care. She was the princess of their family. Born in a small town, done her schooling in a nearby school, completed inter in a college in the town. Her life was changed when she got into college for bachelor’s, which is far away from her home. Against her will, she left for college thinking that she needs to do that in order to achieve her goals. On the first day of her college she felt like college is another world to experience. Like every student, she also felt that the first week of college was very tough. Even though nothing serious happened, the environment freaked her out. As days passed out there comes the big day for a fresher. It’s the interaction day. Everyone around her felt like aliens and she was so afraid. There is only one thing continuously storming her mind, she wanted to run back to her parents, but the desperation to achieve her goals stopped her and made her overcome the fear inside.
In the midst of all those thoughts running through her mind, she was dumbstruck when she found herself surrounded by a bunch of seniors. She was so terrified and at that moment not even her goals could stop her from thinking about giving up on herself.
In her own words:
At that moment I really missed my home and I wanted to just get away from there, I almost gave up on myself. I would have ended up crying there itself if I hadn’t heard that voice that day. Ajay, one of my seniors called me away from the bunch and saved my day. He talked with me for some time and tried to make me feel comfortable with the environment. After some time, I felt comfortable talking to him, his presence made my mood back to normal. I liked him, the way he cared for me was really so nice. The whole day he was with me and he even introduced me to his friends and made all the thoughts in my mind settle. I used to talk with him whenever I saw him and always I used to be the one to first initiate the talk. This continued until one day when he suddenly called me. I never gave him my phone number but I had his number from my friends. So, I was shocked how the hell he got my number, as only a few members who are close to me know. I answered the call and he was in some sort of hurry. He told me to go and meet Radha(senior) in the hostel. I went to her and gave my phone to her. She talked like an hour with him and then she thanked me and returned my phone. Next day, Ajay met me in college and said thanks for the help. From then onwards he used to call me to talk to Radha and also sometimes with me. Slowly the phone calls started to be of long and only with me. We both became close and we used to spend most of our time together. We started hanging out more than before and I felt comfortable with him to discuss everything. I started loving him and got addicted to him. I missed him every second when we were apart, but being a girl I hesitated to tell it and waited for him to make the move first.
A year passed by then and I was so much waiting for the moment he proposes to me. I enjoyed the struggle he used to have to be normal with me. One day we decided to go to a movie. We enjoyed the movie and about to start to college, then a guy in the parking lot commented to me. Ajay was furious and thrashed him as a hero does for a heroine in every movie. I got lost on the sight of the love for me in his eyes. I hugged him and cried for some time. It felt nice and secure with him. It was the starting point of our love story. We started hangout together more frequently. We couldn’t have enough of each other. As days passed another year of my B.tech was done and Ajay got graduated and got placed in a reputed MNC. Even though he used to meet me regularly, the college meant so dull and irritating without his presence. After a few days, he got into a project and said that he wouldn’t be available for a week.
I never thought that one week would make such a huge change in my life. It has been three days since he left, I got a call from my friend that she saw Ajay near her house. I didn’t believe her until she sent his photo. I was worried and called him but he ignored my call. He ignored to answer my calls for another day and on the next day, he suddenly showed himself in the college. He said he was waiting for me but his phone was continuously buzzing while we are talking. I got irritated and yelled at him and went away from there. He called me after an hour and tried to talk to me but I didn’t pick his call. One week later he again came to our college and tried to convince me. It continued the same way for a few days and one day we had a huge fight and we exchanged harsh words. He was the one who lied to my face and he was the one who tried to hide things from me and he was the one to start the verbal abuse. I was so hurt that I blocked his in every medium and cried for days. After that day he didn’t show himself again in the college, he didn’t even try to contact my friends. Then onwards he didn’t care about me. I have understood that I made the wrong decision to love him. He was a cheat who trapped me just to show off to his friends. He never loved me even though I decided to give him a chance, But that never happened he never showed up for me and he hadn’t even tried to contact after I unblocked him. That literally broke me. He used to see all my posts on the social network but never cared to talk to me. I was literally broken and cursed myself for loving him. Finally, I completed my studies and got a small job in a software company. I missed him so much but decided to wait till he feels the same about me. The fairytale future plans made the passing of every day difficult.
I miss him so much and I love him with all my heart but what could we do when the other person does not feel the same about us.
