Lost love

8: Leaving?

Alexanders POV:

She said she loved me, but in what way I wonder. The same I feel for her or merely as a best friend?

It does not matter all that does is how she is feeling and she seems better. Still crying softly but slowly returning to the girl I once knew. In my embrace she holds me tightly, never before have we hugged like this. It is as if she is dependant on me for oxygen. I hug her just as tight reassuring her it will all be okay.

After saying comforting words in her ear I could feel her calming completely down, I sit her down on the edge of her bed. "So do you want to talk about it?" I say while pulling up a chair from beside me and sit on it back to front, arms crossed against its back. "What would you feel if one day I disappear?" my body froze I was not expecting that I started stammering. "I-I can not dare unfathomable such an idea" I confess.

All Emma could do was silently nod and tears brimming in her beautiful glossy eyes "would you ever forget me?" her voice broke. "What, I could never!" I stand and hold my hand out, "I could never forget a person who means the world to me. Emma, we were raised together since birth even though the reason was never clear to us I am glad it was you" before anymore words came out of my mouth she tackled me to a nearby sofa laying on top of me crying. A gasp escaped my lips as it was awfully sudden. Nonetheless, I instantly embrace her softly stroking her smooth hair.

Emma's POV:

"You always had a way with words; I almost envy you" I choked back my tears gripping tighter as I know this will be the last time we see each other. I can't allow it to be this, sad. The last thing I want him remembering of me is smiling looking my best not a cry baby. I won't be the one to tell him of my departure call me a coward if you will but the thought of his face upset pains me enough. "You are improving in strength I must say" Alexander says while giggling "oh my" I instantly loosened my hold on him "I'm sorry, you aren't hurt are you? I don't understand what came over me, forgive me." How could I be so reckless. "Hey listen to me I will forgive you a thousand times, Hell more so if I can stay with you. You are what brings life into this wretched place do not dare forget that."

We stay in each others embrace for a little while longer causing us to loose precious time. With Alexander still oblivious to what will come to pass. "Would you mind leaving me until tomorrow, there is so much work that needs to be done and I'm sure you have important matters to attend to as well." My body has a mind of its own and wanders towards the door. "Yes of course but that was indeed comfortable however you do have a point" He looks towards the floor reluctant to get up.

Alexander's POV:

So much to do so little time, my legs swing themselves onto the floor then my back. I stand and stretch my muscles as they felt stiff. My arms are thrown behind my back hands clasped together being pulled popping my joints in the shoulder "much better" I smile and look at the girl analysing me. Throughout everyone I have ever known she is the only person capable to read me properly and accurately. "Well then, we shall meet again shortly maybe even tonight" I shrug. Our eyes wandered to each others her red puffy ones were met with a bright green glow and for a second hint of regret was evident in her eyes but what was its cause?

Emma's POV:

This can not be the last time we meet I pray, temptation was running deep but not showing anything would torture my mentality later on. Yet doing something regrettable would pain me just as much. It was too much before I knew it my hands were behind his back hugging tightly. He does not react as I gave him no real time to, swiftly my lips touched his warm cheek. Alexander stood there a stuttering mess allowing me to open the door and usher him out. "Goodbye Alexander" I whisper through the door resting my forehead against the wood.

Alexander's POV:

Well that was awfully random, I hold my cheek still unable to move even but an inch. Emma is surely not that oblivious to my recent 'feelings' seeing as I am an open book to that girl. However, as she said earlier I have so much work to do that was no lie. What goes on in that girls head makes me wonder. Its getting quite late I might as well go to bed early and face all the issues tomorrow.

As I make my way to my chambers a negative feeling hits my stomach, hard this is quite peculiar. No matter how much I try to shake this feeling nothing seems to be working will this be the life of a young prince? Forever feeling guilt for no apparent reason unless my subconscious is trying to scream something at me at least give me a better sign.

Everything will be fine, everything will be fine, everything will be- a yawn disturbs my repetitive thought making my eyes fall heavy. Sleep consumes me quickly.

Emma's POV:

Just when Alexander left I pulled up that chair he recently moved and sat down at my desk. If I can't say my goodbyes then he at least deserves a letter. I pick up my quill and dip it in the black ink and place it on the paper neatly laid in front of me. My hand couldn't stop shaking and the tears refused to cease I fear they will drip onto the paper so far luck has not been kind towards me.

Just as I finished writing my back became stiff. Regrettably a few tears stained and foiled the paper but I did not have any time to perfect it. Surely he wont mind, of course he wouldn't. Please let this all be a bad nightmare. Whilst I was writing maids came in and out of my room packing for me this really is reality huh. Time to go to sleep in a now cold unfamiliar room. I have to make father proud maybe if my work excels his standards I could come back! All I can now do is try and try my hardest.

A knock from my door woke me up from my light sleep, my gaze instantly goes to the curtains seeing no light seeping through. "Well father did say I leave at dawn" I muter coldly while the knocking is still persistent "come in!" the door instantly opens and it's the maid whom I placed a flower in her beautiful hair. "M'lady it is time to leave soon" she sounds sad as if she has been crying while laying out my clothes. "You should meet with your father in his study once you are ready, I hope you have safe travels." She was just about to leave when I suddenly called out for her "wait!" I got out of bed quickly and hugged her which clearly took her by surprise "please look after Alexander for me and tell him that I will miss him terribly I am sure I can entrust this task with you" she nodded and walked out the room leaving me again in an unfamiliar place to what I was used to.

Changing quickly was a tedious task but my tardiness would not be appreciated. Hurrying to my fathers study was also annoying as my feet nearly tripped over themselves outside of Alexanders room ironically my feet stop outside his door but I am running out of time I can't stop not now. Besides before I left my room I left the note on my pillow, sure he will find it.

Outside the study I was about to open the doors but someone from the inside did that for me. "Right on time Emma, good." He never was a morning person. We gather everything else needed and rushed out the door, one last look from me and we were off.

"Goodbye, I'll be home soon" words only heard by me and nature.