Different

Welcome to my life

Well hello .. welcome to my life! Life was all good until the age of 3 or 4 . Well life was still good then i guess . I was just a young girl so i don't quite remember what went on back then . I just remember staying in this lil wooden house . I became a big sister at the age of 3 i was gone be 4 that year tho . Me being the only child for a couple years really made me jealous so i would do anything to get my momma attention . At the age of 8 is when my childhood ended . Don't remember the exact day but we all thought everything was gone be the same as usual and nothing bad would happen so around 9:30 my babysitter asked who wanted to go with him to the store . Me being the oldest he would only let me go . But by that time the local store was closed and i kept on telling him that but he still wanted to go . So we walking to the store at 10 o'clock at night . The whole time I'm telling him the store closed . So we turned around after the fact he saw it was closed but instead of us going back to the house with my unattended sister and cousins we walked cross town to this abandoned house .. the whole time we was walking he telling me we Going to his cousin house . We had nothing to worry about  .. he told me i could sleep in a big shirt etc .. well i didn't find that strange because I'm always sleeping in big shirts and panties . I'm just 8 remember . So anyways we get to this house and it's nobody there you can tell by then it's a abandoned house so he tried to get through the door but it was locked then he grabbed something and bust the window and put my Lil ass in there then he climbed his big ass through the window... so now we on the floor laying down and he tell me to take my clothes off but i didn't pay him no attention so he start taking them off for me .. I'm not thinking nothing about him harming me really so .. he takes my panties off and I'm starting to question him ... like "wyd" & telling him to stop but he's not paying me no attention so i started screaming .... he puts his hand over my mouth and starts inserting his penis into my "private area" the way he holding me i can't really move so I'm just forced to take it at this point .. 15 mins into him forcing hisself inside me he takes it out and shove it inside my booty hole .
Me: *crying* i have to use the restroom.
Him: *ignores me*
Me: I HAVE TO USE THE RESTROOM.
Him: *puts hand back over mouth* then whispers don't tell nobody or i will kill you ..
it's about 12 something now and we head back cross town to the house .. I'm quiet and shaking the whole time we walking .. we get close to the house and he decides to go in the rich neighborhood and do a repeat of Last time but this time it didn't last quite as long because somebody heard us and raised  their window so he got scared and rushed me to put my clothes on .. so we running to the house now . My great aunt was supposed to get there at 12 so by the time we got there she was there so we knocking on the door and she wasn't answering at first but she finally answered when she answered the boy had ran away but i was still at the door so when she opened the door i walked in slowly because i was hurting and still had to use it . She ask me where i had been and etc so I'm telling her and she was like you been "raped" she started calling my momma them telling them what's going on but no answer.. i had to wait to use the restroom because i was so sore down there . We finally got in touch with my mother but instead of her taking me right to the doctor she got to argue with the boy mother and all kinds of things . It's 2:30 I'm on the way to the er so when i got there they had to put me in the computer or whatever. So when i finally got back there i was sleep. When i finally woke up i saw a man doctor between my legs tryna make sure everything was alright with me and he didn't give me anything.. we later founded out that he turned hisself in and that he had also raped a 5 year old boy .