"I love you Sarah! I love you so much! Don't you love me?!? Please forgive me!! I miss you! Please don't forget about me! I love you! Forgive me! But don't forget! Love me! I love you!!
The time read 3:27a.m. Ever since Liam's death I've been having dreams about him. I know it's been a month but he really changed me inside. I don't talk much at college, I only eat with Jenny and Adriana and who ever is sitting by them. I met this cool kid named David that I once and a while sit with but he speaks Spanish a lot so I don't understand him most of the time. I go to the police station to talk to Mr.Stearns about my dreams about Liam, he writes down everything I say plus he buys food for us when we talk. I decided my career is going to be nursing, someone who will help out the main doctors, being a vet just doesn't interest me as much.
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I'm in my Nutrition class right now and I already know a lot about it. "You have a question Sarah?" "Uh no sorry Mr.Johnshen" "Then please put your hand down" "Oh sorry didn't notice it was up" "See me after class." Ughg that's like in 1 hour, how am I suppose to remember to stay after class?
*Bing* *Bing*
That was a class of bordem. "Sarah come here" "Sorry for having my hand up I was probably stretching" "No not that. I know that you are a very smart person but something's wrong" "Yes Mr.Johnshen there something wrong but it's difficult to talk about" "Okay but please be more attentive in my class."
*Bing* *Bing*
"Can I have a pass?" "What's your next class?" "Public and Global Health with Mrs.Clangett" "Okay here you go" "Thank you" I told Mr.Johnshen and walked out the door. "Hey!" "I have a pass" I said turning around to whoever yelled out Hey to me. "Me too" "Uh hi" "I've seen you around" "Yeahh I should really get going to class" "You have pass don't you?" "Yeah so?" "Let me take you somewhere" "Uhmm I would but I won't" "Come on" "I don't know you" "Tyler James" "Your in the class I'm going to aren't you?" "Hmmhm" "We should go then" "Why can't we have fun" "My fun ended a month ago" I said and started walking to class. "No goodbye?" "In the same class Tyler" "Oh right" he said behind me and managed to catch up. "So what happened a month ago?" "Nothing drop it" "You can tell me" "No I can't" I said opening the doors to the outside hallway. I started to pick up the pace hopefully he would let it go. I shouldn't have said anything. It just pops in my mind whenever it feels like. I could see Mrs.Clangett's class up ahead but I couldn't go. I stopped where I was and sat down. All I could think of was Liam and how hard it was on his family. They had no idea he had such a bad past and they never spoke to me after they found out I was the cause of his death. I now feel tears running down my face so I put my knees to my head and wrapped my arms around it. I didn't want to cry but it all came back at once. The party, his house, his pool, his scent, his voice, his name. Liam was going through my mind like it's never gone through before. Everything reminded me of him. He was going to kill me hurt the most. My boyfriend was going to kill me but I killed him. I didn't mean to, all I wanted was to get away alive. "Sarah?" "I'm sorry Liam I didn't mean too" "Sarah it's Tyler." I immediately got up and whiped my face when he said his name "Oh right sorry" "Are you okay?" "Did you really ask that question?" "Okay, well do you want to talk about it?" "No" "Okay then let's get to class" "Um you can I'm going home" "You hungry?" "I guess" "Pizza?" "What?" "I'll go with you" "No it's okay I'm fine" "You just look like you need someone to talk to" "Thanks but no thanks" "It's no trouble I mean I already missed the beginning of class" "I think I'll be fine alone" "Are you sure?" "Take a hint Tyler! I don't want you with me!" I accidentally yelled out at him. I did want him I wanted someone else to talk to but I couldn't just let someone in my life. "Oh, well if you see it like that then I'll go" "No....Tyler I didn't. I'm sorry." "I forgive you but you know where I am if you need me." "Tyler don't go-" Damn it but alright. "Come with me?" "I thought you'll never ask" "Shut- okay. Follow me?" "Yeah." We both walked into the student parking lot and drove off.
