hardly love

Chapter 4| Date?

*TRIGGER WARNING*

"Ok, I'll see you Thursday, Missie", Codec winked to me as he walked away. I held the light pink tulips he handed to me. I felt dizzy. I couldn't stop smiling and....I wAS GOING ON A DATE WITH CODEC MILLER!! This is my true love and things are finally happening with him!

I ran up the stairs hearing the soft pit-pat of my bare feet hitting the cold wood flooring. Clutching the sweet flowers to my chest, I pushed myself in my room falling gently on my bed. Nothing could go wrong at this point. I was on cloud 9! The air around me was so easy to breathe in...I swear it tasted sweet, too.

My baby pink duvet swirled around my body. I felt so alive for the first time in awhile. It's so strange, but I feel so different. Just better.

Shortly after my mom walked in dropping off my laundry and warning me about dinner time. Honestly the whole conversation with her blew over my head.

After dinner, my bed beckoned me, but a small feeling of forget tugged at my mind. I suddenly remembered the brown paper bag i was meant to open. i quickly grabbed it opening its slowly, slightly scared of the contents.

A small black rectangle appears, and i suddenly understand it's a recorder. Why would Jake give me this? Such an odd gift, then again Jake's always been an odd guy. 

A small piece of ripped notebook paper fell out of the bag shortly after i had taken out the recorder.

'hey, you might need this. something suspicious is going on and this might just be useful. codec isn't what he seems.
          xoxo, Jake'

What could he mean? Codec's a gentleman. A great guy. He's exactly what he seems. I love him for it, too. But i trust Jake. Could he be right?

Suddenly a wave of exhaust overtakes me. Today's been long and I could think of nothing else but my date on Thursday, with the love of my life. There's no way he's not a good guy.
                      |Thursday|
I wore an off-white sun dress that twirled slightly as I walked. It had soft watercolor sunflowers stained into it, which, no mean to brag, but, I painted.

Every time I wear this dress it reminds me of the day I painted it. That day was amazing too. I had just finished homework so me and Jake went to a diner. I saw this huge, gorgeous painted mural of a meadow, and the sunflowers stuck out to me most. I can't remember why it just made me feel good. I was on this high of excitement and wanted to pour that out onto something physical. And I'm not much of a writer so painting felt right. But the whole time a canvas just felt so boring, i thought i would eventually find a way to express the emotions i felt on that day looking at that mural into something.

The rest of that day was a blast. Just like the beginning. Because of Jake. Of course we had to be home before 11 and so he walked me home. I remember the exact moment his eyes locked on mine and he told me how beautiful I had looked. That's when I just knew I had to do it on the exact dress I was wearing in that moment, to remember those words. To remember that warm feeling that sprouted itself deep in my stomach. Now I have this piece that reiterates the emotions Jake gave me, giving me the warm tingly feeling all over again. Giving me the same high I had that day with Jake. Exactly like that day at the diner..

Everyone met up at this cafe I had never seen before. I had heard of it plenty of times, just never been interested in going, too mainstream for my taste. But if Codec liked it, it had to be good.

"Missie, meet Katherine." A friend of Codec's , who I'm assuming brought the girl, stood in front of me practically showing her off like some one of a kind gem.