Fire in my Heart(Beckin) ✔️

I cant do this anymore

*Few months time Skip*

Justin Lynch Point of View:

Qoute of the page: I can't be with you when you still love him.

I over the course of three months have been sitting behind some commentary desk letting Kevin and Sami talk shit to me. I also let go every chance of having a chance with Becky leave my hands because she loves Sami.  I soon sat at the desk waiting for the show to start. My heart still aching from the day I stood against a door frame waiting for Becky to turn around and just smile at me and accept my offer to take her to the hall of fame. But of course I'm not some ass hole. I'm not the asshole she loves. I wish I was Sami. I so badly wish I was Sami because if instead of playing Becky's Feelings and well cheating on her for Mandy Rose. I would give her the time of the world. But I forgot I'm just Justin Lynch and she is Becky Lynch.

I soon fixed my tie as I sat there interacting with some fans taking selfies with them and answering some of there questions. I wanted to have some love. I never seemed to get much fan love since my stinger in Japan. I kinda have been forgotten which is kinda good because at least I don't have to worry about someone pointing about my embarrassing stunt. I soon focused my attention to the ramp as the show was starting to begin and I was opening us up tonight. As much as I hated it Corey Graves stoped doing it which left me in charge of it.

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After the shower I tugged my clothes off  and shoved them into my bag before changing into a t-shirt and some gray joggers before wheeling my suitcase out of the building. I soon felt Sami come up behind me.

"Ohhh man you look like some type of train wreck." Sami pointed out as he ruffled my hair.

"Back off Sami!" I said sharply as balled up one of my fist.

I had my last with Sami. These past few months made me realize I should have just told Becky what he did but instead I blocked her and avoided her at all cost. Being to hurt to talk to her. The countless rest nights I stared at the ceiling my hands on my chest. I blamed Sami for that all he had to say was one more thing and I would do it and he clearly wouldn't want to see what that was either.

Sami snickered and shoved my bag out of my hands and onto someone's car. He soon looked at me. "What you going to do? Nothing?" He said as he giggled.

I turned around to grab my bag before running at Sami and spearing into the grass patch. I threw a few solid punches to his face before Becky came over and pushed me off  Sami.

"Oh so know your girl friend is going to protect you after you talk shit? That's what I though Sami back off. Becky stay out of this! You don't mean shit anyways!" I said I'm anger as I got into the black suv. I placed my suit case in there two. I soon left the parking lot.

I regretted every word o said to Becky. I soon pulled over and punched the wheel a few times I regretted every single word I said to Becky. Just because she hurt me didn't mean I had the right. No matter how much I wanted to apologize I couldn't I  had her blocked on all my media and I wasn't ready to apologize to her because of that.

Seconds later I had unblocked Becky on social media and all other chatting platforms. I soon found a text she sent me a long time ago. The text that she sent was a text where she told me how much she couldn't wait to go to the hall of fame with me. I soon felt my phone vibrate it was Becky calling.

I answer the phone of course to only be greeted by her asking to meet me in my hotel room. I agreed figuring I deserved what I had coming.

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I soon heard who I figured would be Becky knocking. So I walked to the door and open the door. "Hey come on in." I said as I stepped aside allowing her inside as I couldn't make eye contact I let my eyes scan the floor.

Becky soon stood in front of me her hands cupping my cheeks as she rubbed them a little. "Is it true that you liked me and your made at Sami because he ruined your chances?" Becky asked softly.

I was shocked she found out. I was also shocked it took her that long to figure out. "Yeah it's true I was going to ask you the night of hall of Fame. I had plans to take you to dinner but umm you went with Sami."

Becky soon stepped away from me as she saw me slowly look up at her. "Justin why didn't you just tell me how you felt?" Becky asked with a small sign as she looked at me.

I crossed my arms and opened the door. I looked at her before taking a deep breathe. "You clearly don't know how hard it is to really genuine like someone. And Sami doesn't count Becky because you don't like him you lust him he makes you feel guilty. I mean like you would never understand anyways." I said to her as I shook my head.

Becky looked at me and cocked an eyebrow. "What do you mean Justin? Tell me?" Becky said as she looked at me.

"I like you Becky i always have and I still do. But I can let it go any further because you will always choose Sami over me." I told her as I let my eyes get glossy. I was to about to spill a tear when I remembered she wasn't worth it.

Becky soon gave me a small hopeful smile before leaving my room. She shut the door gently behind her before standing outside the door crying while I sat on my bed crying.