Fire in my Heart(Beckin) ✔️

Im so close

Becky Lynch Point of View.

Qoute of Page: I want you

I was currently at my hotel room playing with the engagement ring. I knew what Justin wanted. He wanted me by his side forever but what was his reason to want me forever? What had his mind so set on being with me forever and I couldn't wrap my head around it.

*becky day dreaming*

My phone goes off and I see Naomi calling I quickly pick it up. "Bish why you not engaged to Justin. Your going to crush the man."
Naomi said.

I pulled my face away from the phone as she kept talking and I wasn't trying to go deaf. "I don't know Naomi Im just umm." I said as I didn't want to go on and spill the truth.

Naomi rolled her eyes. "Rebecca just because Sami was going to propose and never did doesn't mean Justin will. Hell he proposed. Just because Luke Sanders left you in the middle of an engagement doesn't mean Justin will. One word that makes you smile more than Wrestling is Justin you know the world knows it because when he proposed you were all happy and since you Broke the engagement off with him everyone has been down including Justin. I know he loves you Becky but if you hurt him you can't Expect him to not forget." Noami told me as Justin open the door and walked on.

I sat up from the bed and walked over to see him. The ring on my hand as I fiddle with it. Justin looked at it and then me. "Are you okay?" I asked him as I looked at him.

Justin looked at me and shook his head. His arms crossing as he stepped around me and walked over his suitcase. "I can't keep pretending this isn't bothering me Rebecca. I can't do this anymore." Justin said his words hitting me like ice.

"I can't be with you if you don't know what you want. I told you what I want Rebecca what do you want?" Justin questioned.

*day dreaming over*

I heard some keys fiddling at the door and as soon as he came through the door I ran over and hugged him. "Please don't leave me."
I said to him as I held a handful of his shirt.

Justin chuckled and picked me up gently. "I was going to take a shower and get ready for work but you seem to have something bothering you." Justin said as he felt my fingers playing with the ring.

I soon held him tighter. As he gently placed me on the bed as he squatted down and placed his head on my knee. My fingers running through his silk soft hair. "Yeah it's just I had a day dream that you were going to can leave me."

Justin chuckled as he kissed my forehead. "Are you on that one thing?" Justin asked me and I turned red from his way of asking.

I nodded and looked away from him. "Umm that's not what I prepared for but umm yeah." I admitted as I felt him move his head away from my knee.

Justin groaned as he knew. "Umm yeah well I wasn't preparing for that either but that explains why your all sad and moody this week." Justin told me.

I glared at him and rolled my eyes. "I'm not moody. You don't understand because you don't cramp." I admitted before looking at him.

Justin raised his hands in defense as he stepped back. "Imma go sit over here."
He said as he pointed to the floor across from me.

I rolled my eyes. "Justin it's not going to hurt you if you come sit over here I promise."
I told him as I was felt so close to loosing himself

Justin walked over to me and sat besides me. I soon laid on my back and Justin soon placed his head on my chest wrapping an arm around me. "I'm so close." He mumbled as he held me close as he got comfy.

I looked at him as I ran a hand through his hair. "Your close to what Justin?" I asked him as I grew afraid of his answer my heart speeding up a little.

Justin lifted his head off my chest. My fingers leaving his head to find his cheeks. "To beating the hell out of Sami." Justin admitted to me.

I soon sat up and held Justin close to me. "No your not going to hurt Sami unless your in the ring and still no hurting him because then you get suspended." I told him as I looked into his eyes.

Justin brown eyes suddenly moving closer to mine as he cupped my in bruised cheek. Soon pressing a kiss to my lips. It's like nothing changed between us. He continued to love me and couldn't thank him enough. His lips moving gently against mine. His hand rubbing my cheeks his other hand on the back of my head gently. My lips moving against his as I craved this kiss for so long and to finally get it was like fireworks exploding. However he pulled away seconds later and his hand running from my cheek to under my chin.

"I love you so much Rebecca and when you called off the engagement I was so close to leaving but I couldn't." Justin admitted we he had a finger softly under my chin.

I felt my heart shatter. It was probably my
Hormones talking but I was torn. "What made you stay Justin?" I asked softly.

Justin looked at me and smiled. "My hopeless romantic i tend to fall into toxic relationships and you were one of them that wasn't toxic
You made me happy. God damn do you make me nervous. I really love you Rebecca. I couldn't leave because I fallen deeply in love with you and there's a part of me that will always love you no matter how bad you hurt even you leaving me I There will always be a place in my heart for you." Justin admitted we he let his finger leave my cheek.

"Justin." I said as I watched him grabbed the engagement ring and stand up and walk away from me I stood up and grabbed his hand.

Justin turned around and looked at me. He looked so hurt. "Rebecca I don't know what I am supposed to do anymore. I can't just play along that this doesn't hurt because it does. Maybe like you I need a little to figure me out too." He said to me.

I quickly placed my arms around him. "No please Justin I need you. Please. I love you." I pleased to him as he hugged me back.

He pleaded his hand on the back of my head as I  felt the shoulder of my t-shirt fill with tears. He was crying into my shoulder as I was crying into his own shoulder.

Justin pulled away from me. "You need to tell me what you seriously want. Do you want this Rebecca. And tell me the truth. Because people today can tell you I love you and not mean it."

I looked at him and cried my eyes out. "I want you. Your all I  have wanted. But Justin you sound unclear about this." I told him.

Justin places the ring in my finger as he hit the elevator button. "Becky i want you more than you will ever understand but it's hard to be with you when you act like everything okay in which it's not because your Afraid of commitment."

I looked at him knowing the truth. "Don't leave me please...please come back we can do to therapy and we can get help I promise."  I said as I held onto him.

Justin kisses my forehead. "You set up the appointment and I'll be there." Justin said as he kissed my head. Wiping the tears away from my face.

"I love you?" I questioned to him.

"I love you Rebecca imma go get you some lunch." He told me before disappearing behind the elevator door. I soon slid down a wall as the tears fell as I slid he ring on my finger. I was hurting him and he was scared to tell me. What if he didn't come back.