Dating Yoo Kihyun

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X - The Night

"Y-you guys should stop being together all the time, like all the time, it's getting out of hand."

I looked at Wonho as he said that. Why? To whom? Hyungwon?

"What do you mean?" I knitted my brows as I asked him but he just looked at me.

"Nothing. I just thought that maybe you'll fall for him again."

I suddenly gasped and then chuckled. What is this man saying?

No. That will never happen again.

"Oppa, stop overthinking. It's just we haven't seen one another for like... months. Duh." I looked again at him and I kind of pinched his left cheek which made his lips curved, a bit.

They were busy as their Dramarama era ended. They were on a tour.

We're on our way home. Our home, exactly. I guess, Hyungwon had to take me there last night 'cause he said I broke down and I won't stop crying 'til we got onto their house.

I asked him what happened but he won't give me an answer. This shithead says why can't I remember what happened? Duh, of course, I do not fucking remember it all! Ugh, I hate it!

I hate it more that I had a lot of drink yesternight.

Fuck Jennie, I hate her. No, not literally, I love her. We're friends. Best of friends, if you may call, but it's not like the old times, okay?

I just hate myself, that's all. But I know this is only an aftereffect of my hangover. I should just sleep again. My head still hurts.

Weeks have already passed and I'm feeling okay. Not good, not bad. It took me days to finally stick to my new routine. I'm at my condo right now, finally decided to live here. My parents and my brother gave this to me as a gift when I already reached 21, back when I had my first job.

The truth is, I already resigned from my work. Only my parents know about it, I haven't talked it yet to Wonho Oppa. The workload gave me episodes of sleepless nights for the past month that's why I decided to just stop it.

I remember someone said to me, "Once you're not happy with what you're doing anymore, stop. Easy as one, two, three." It took me months to finally decide on it though. If truth be told, it's not easy at first. You have to weigh all that's happening to your life before you decide what's best for you.

And here is what's best for me. Eat if I'm already hungry, workout when I feel like it, clean every other day, do my hobbies with no one to interrupt me and binge-watch dramas and series until I fall asleep.

This is the life that I've been wanting to do since then and I'm glad that I'm already living it. Well, I know this is only temporary and I have to go find a new work again but for now, I will just enjoy these. I am currently in love with what I'm doing... and that is to listen to yourself every time.

To be honest, I've been struggling a lot lately but I tried to not think about it because I don't want myself to be stress as fuck. When Wonho Oppa was there to buy us ice cream, my parents saw us playing just like the old times, my friends at the party, those were just some of the moments where I tried hard to distract myself.

I knew back then deep inside me that I am struggling with something I can't tell, yet I know I should just keep on fighting and be braver every day. 'Cause that is how it's supposed to be, right? You can sulk but you can't sulk forever.

I heaved a deep sigh. There are so many random things that's been playing in my head again... I need to refreshen up.

I looked at the wall clock near the tv here in the living room, not really shocked anymore to see that it's already 2 in the afternoon. I want some spicy food for my lunch so I searched for something easy to cook at YouTube.

While searching for a spicy chicken wings recipe, my phone notified that Kihyun just messaged me.

14:25

Ki Oppa: Hey, what u up to?

Hmm. Here we go, Kihyun is up at it again! Well, the day we first talked, he already asked for my number and who am I to reject, right? He's a nice person and he's attractive so I just go well with the flow. We've been texting for a while and I can say that he's fun to talk with. 

After I cook, it's already near three as I sat on my dining chair and eat this delicious food that I just made. Wow, I can actually cook already!

14:58

Me: Hmm, nothing much.

Me: I just cooked my lunch.

Seconds after, he replied.

Ki Oppa: Then you'll be full later for a movie night?

Movie night?

Right after I received the text, he called me.

"What do you mean movie night?" I asked, confused.

"Why? Do you have something to do later?" He asked back.

I think of all the things that are on my to-do list for this day and I think it's all already done.

"But what's with the sudden invite?"

"What do you mean sudden invite? You've been turning me down since I got your number."

Oh. Right. I chuckled. I just don't want to, that's all.

"Don't worry. If it's okay with you, let's just watch there on your condo."

Good idea. A sly smile was invisible on my face right now.

"Sure, it's fine. But are you the only one who's coming?"

I heard him chuckle. Excuse me? "No, the original plan is to be with Hyungwon and Wonho Hyung."

Nice. I get to have an interaction with people.  

"Oh, so that's why Wonho Oppa was asking me to go out with him a while ago..." And I rejected him. Bad, sister.

"So... See you later?"

I smiled and replied, "sure, see you."

After the call, I finished my lunch and washed my plates. I should clean the living room for a while after this right?

I stopped while I suddenly thought of the foods they or we should eat while having a movie marathon. 

I guess they really just have to wind down and relax for a while. After all, having promotions and world tours are exhausting. I thought of foods to de-stress and of course the top list is ice cream! I quickly finished cleaning, after that, I walked to my room and get my wallet. 

There's a grocery mart near the building so it's fine to just walk but when I suddenly saw Wonho Oppa, with a bunch of guys next to him, when the elevator opened at the first floor, I regret my decision of not changing and fixing up even just a little bit!

What the hell?! Why are they all here?

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