Short stories

Thoughts

I watched a video about a girl who commit suicide last night and whilst watching it my heart dropped. They spoke about things that I think about in my currently state of mind.
Don't get me wrong I try and talk about it, but I feel like I sound stupid or unnecessary because someone else is going through something worse.
I can't explain somethings to him because I feel like he wouldn't understand or even if I were to explain them and he would understand some of the things I'm feeling involve him and I do need to complicate something that works the way it is. Besides, like I keep thinking to myself, he has Emma so therefore I don't need to worry about him.
Ha, that's a bit of a joke considering one I don't think she understands and two he talks to me about his issues anyway. What am I going to do, tell him to go talk to her about them? No because then I would lose him. It's not that I don't care because in fact it's the complete opposite. I care way too much about him and whether anyone wants to look at it as a bad or good thing I just see it as it is what it is and I really can't help the way I feel. But if something happens to him, I'm going to crumble.
I don't think he realises how much I do care about him. I don't think I'm even going to mention it because it's not going to change anything. I know my place. But I can't help how I feel.