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You tremble in fear and in shame, pour your eyes out: the pain, all in vain.
You're angry and guilty
Scream, you're terrified by the beauty
Of nothing of everything
Try to see past the veil and see yourself stare back
You can see different angles of your life
Like a fantasy, then reality, and what it's not meant to be
You invent and claim to know ,yet ,where should you go?
Your body is trapped in a box and everything around you turns in circles.
Don't know what but you're still doing it.
Waiting for something, expecting to become
What do you want to be?
Who did you come to see.
You? Someone pretending to be you? Or you, pretending to be someone else.
Expect to have found the key and you can't find the lock
Say you're prepared for the real world
Yet you hide behing the glass, like at the zoo
Life is some wild animal and you need the safety barrier.
Bored, unmotivated, lost your dream
You're never gonna be succesful, so why even try?
Speaking from your heart, or a mask hiding your face, clouding your vision.
Scared and prepared.
Not prepared.
Try to make a change, but they say to master something you need to master youself
Who is yourself?
Who is yourself.
Who is You.
Who is this uknown person you call you?
Rebel against everything.
Still want to fit in.
Expecting to just fit perfectly in the middle of some ranking.
But that isn't you.
Again you ask who is this 'you' I speak of?
You? She pretty much as good as dead. Covered with a smile,
with a cut,
with a contact,
with a stage name.
Like at the zoo, they don't let the wild animals free.

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