Destroyer

Chapter 5 - Home.

Walking the short route home alone sucked, I guess you never really get used to feeling alone... You just live with it. Kobi gets a bus so he couldn't walk me home which sucked but you know, the thought was there.

As I walked down the familiar path I recognised each and every crevasse and imperfection in its once shiny marble surface, scared with the footprints of others. In a way I've always seen this path as a person, each and every experience paved on them, showing the scars of previous experiences but never quitting and always doing their job.

Turing off the path and up my driveway seemed like a shorter walk then I expected yet nevertheless I still came my front door, it's exposed surface practically imprinted with 'home' across the front. I shunted my keys inside the door and forced my way in, we needed to sort out (or get a new door) but mum simply couldn't part with our current one so every afternoon I had to practically break in. The all so familiar smell filled my nose immediately, the smell of home is stained into the walls however the painful silence is still evident.

Most school days mum works whilst dad works 11 hours a day to afford the mortgage so most days I'm in my own company. In some ways I prefer my own company, me, myself and I. Left with only my thoughts and fears to ponder about for hours, but it'd always be nice to have someone with me in the lonely hours I spend until six when the troops return home from the battlefield.

The loneliness of the hour is slowly ticking by. Waisting time by watching re-runs of friends and Americas next top model. I know... Seems like a weary existence for a fourteen year old, but I do enjoy afternoons like this as they have a tendency to either wither into night or merge into day.

Sitting in the company of myself whilst delving into season eight of friends i pondered my thoughts, the main being ones mostly being 'where's my history sheet' and 'will I use algebra in life' but the most reoccurring being Kobi Dantom... After all, I never thought Kobi would talk to me let alone kiss me, why now? Why me? Is this a joke? I feel hopelessly confused and my mind is practically replaying each moment we spent together. Kobi kissed me. Words can't describe how I feel and if they did it would go a little something like 'Asdhduenkeleorudbhsosbsgshsbshsisbsbsjbdxdyguknwpuverve' He made me giddy and the thought of him made me feel cosy and warm, what is this feeling?...

Love?