Queen Oneshots

I'll never love again p.2 - Breaky

Sorry that you had to wait so long for part two. I don't really have a good excuse ...
And yes I know this song was written by Lady Gaga and it's from A star is born but it's fanFICTION.

John's POV

I had nowhere to stay so I headed to Freddie's. I took my suitcase from the car and knocked on the door. After few minutes Freddie opened the door yawning.
"Can I stay a couple of days here, I have nowhere to go and I don't want to see him ..." I said choking on my tears.
"Deaky you can stay as long as you want, even it means forever. And give me that you can't carry heavy stuff, you're pregnant." He said and hugged me tightly.
"Thank you Fred" I replied smiling sadly.
We sat on the couch in the leaving room and we were watching a horror movie. Freddie went to the kitchen to make popcorn and I was sitting under the blanket.
"Come here you dumbass I'm scared" I said loudly.
We was back in a couple of minutes with a bowl full of popcorn.
"Smells delicious" I said and took some.
I tried to focus on the movie but Freddie was looking at me most of the time and it was kind of anoying.
"Stop looking at me!" I made a angry face.
"You're cute when you angry, you know that? " he said playing with my hair.
I bit my lip nervously. It was very uncomfortable for me.
"I'm tried Fred, I'm gonna take a shower and go to sleep ..." I sounded panicked.
"Hey Deaky, I'm sorry" he said sadly.
But I was already on the stairs heading to the bathroom. I locked myself in bathroom and took a quick shower. I went to one of the guest room and sat on the bed in my pyjamas. I wanted to smoke so bad but I wouldn't do that to my baby. I was lying under the covers and humming softly while writing everything in my little notebook.

And I wanna pretend that it's not true oh baby that you're gone
Cause my world keeps turnin' and turnin' and turnin' and I'm not movin' on

I bursted into the tears and hide under the blanket. Why Brian did this to me? I love him so much.Maybe I am too ugly or overdramatic. I'm trying, really. I take my meds and go to the therapy. Maybe Roger was better in bed. I don't fucking know! But I wasn't enough for him and it's my fault.

I spend few days at Garden Lodge. I was looking for a house for me and my baby but didn't find anything proper yet. I was spending time mostly alone because at nights Freddie was clubbing, getting drunk and shagging everyone and everything. In the morning he rushed to the studio. I left the band I just really don't want to spend time with Rog. I still love Brian and I'm so angry because of that. He hurted me I should hate him but I don't. I hate myself. Because if I was enough for him he wouldn't cheat on me. I was sitting on the sofa and drinking my tea. When I heared the doorbell I went to open the door. I expected pizza deliver guy because I ordered large margaritha. Pregnancy got me so hungry and it was just seven weeks. But to my suprise it was Brian, with flowers and box of chocolates in his hands. I looked in his eyes.
"Deaky can we talk, please?" He begged.
"Okay, come in" I said smiling sadly.
We entered the house and sat on the sofa.
"John I want to apologize to you. I was a dick. And I'm really ashamed that I cheated on you. And I'm sorry that I lied to you for so long. I love you and I want to be with you. I want to take care of you and our little bean " He said and put his hands on my stomach.
"If you're doing it just because I'm carrying your child Brian I swear to god ..."
"No! I'm doing this because I love you John "
"I love you too " I said and a tear rolled down my cheek. "What's this?" I said caresing his bruised cheek.
"You slapped me remember? I deserved that anyway"
"True. I must slapped you really hard" I said chuckling.
"Didn't expect you to be so strong " he said hugging me.
"Brian do you promise that you will never cheat on me again and you will be always honest with me? I'll forgive you but I never forget about it" I asked holding his hands.
"I promise. Just come home baby I miss you"
"I miss you too. I love you so much Brian ... " I said leaning and kissing him.
The kiss was hot, deep and full of love and sorrow. He took my things and we went to the car. The pizza arrived so we took it with us too. We were returning home and I was so happy, it will be a new beginning for us.