Would he really like me if he really knew me? I ask myself as I got ready to meet him. The courts going to dig up so many things about my father and what he has done to me. Can I go through it again? Can I live with it. I just have so many doubts. S...
"Well, were going to be in town. Your town. You think we could maybe meet up or something? We really miss you and the girls. I miss you." he says with a blush.
This is what I remember him saying. He was so sweet honestly, but would he really like me if he really knew me? I ask myself as I got ready to meet him. The courts going to dig up so many things about my father and what he has done to me. Can I go through it again? Can I live with it. I just have so many doubts. So much uncertainty. I use to say 1, 2, 3 Forget, but will I be able to this time?
I grab my red dress that Namjoon bought me. It was crazy, I came home and had a beautifully wrapped package. I unwrapped it and inside was the most beautiful dress I've ever seen. It also had a letter telling me to wear it when we meet. It was about enough to make a girl cry. Even if I do feel like I'm unworthy of it. I know I don't deserve any of this around me. I look around my room and sigh. "I better hurry up before I'm late" I say aloud, even though I knew I was the only one that would hear.
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I take the dress and my purse and walk to the bathroom trying to dash the terrible thoughts and demons away. Once making it inside, I shut and locked the door behind me and filled up the sink with water. Once the sink was full I looked at my reflection in the mirror. In front of me I see a girl that looks perfectly fine on the outside, but inside I know otherwise. I truly have gotten better, but the dreams still haunt me. I then look down into the water in the sink. My reflection seems to ripple. Almost like its a mirage. Something that really isn't there. That's how I felt sometimes. From a distance people will think I'm alright and nothing is wrong. If they got close enough they would see the darkness. I refuse to let any get this close to me though. I quickly wash my face and dry it with a nearby towel.
"A little bit of makeup and I'll be on my way to meet them" I told myself as I applied a light dusting of eye shadow and swiping on my favorite mascara, it was waterproof just in case. That should do it. "Who needs lipstick anyways." I tell myself with a laugh, even though I knew I was being lazy. I slip on my red dress and heals. That should do it. I lastly grab my purse and leave the house where I now live. Thanks to my best friends, we all live together.
A/N I know I said it this book would be released in the fall, but I'm only going to be releasing smaller chapter for now. Kinda like a Teaser. Hope you enjoy this story :)
