You don't know me

Don't hurt me

What if they hit me? Was the last thing I remember before I pass out.

I woke up in a big bed wearing only a long t-shirt and underwear.  I sit up and look around my surroundings. Louis room. I get up and head downstairs for breakfast. Before I enter the kitchen I hear someone moving around. Walking in I keep my head down, because the whole house hold probably knows that I cut. I try not to expose my wrist much, but it doesn't really matter.

"Claire" said a raspy voice. I look up to see louis with puffy eyes and messed up hair. I swallowed hard and ask him, "what?"

He pulls me into his lap, and rests his chin on my head.

"Why?" He choked out. I knew what he was talking about. Why do I cut?

"I-i just do" I stuttered.  He held me even tighter, as if if he let go i would disappear.

"it's because of us isn't it" he asked, well it was more of a statement instead of a question. 

"Y-yes" I said hesitating for a second. He rubbed his hand up and down on my arm, and let out a sigh. He grabbed my chin and forced me to look up at him.

"I'm sorry about all of this, I really am" he apologized, but he isn't the one that needs to apologize. 

"it's ok" I say. We just stand there for a few minutes in silence, not knowing what to say. I finally get up off his lap and start to make cereal. I can feel his eyes on me. Like if he looks away for a split second, I will do it again.

" Emma, come here." Louis said. I looked up and slowly walked up to him. This was it. He was going to hit me. I know he is going to hit me. I clench my eyes close and wait for the impact of the hand on my cheek, but it never came. I opened my eyes to see what he was doing.

" Emma, did you really think that I was going to hit you?" Louis asked, shocked.

I swallowed hard and looked down. I slowly nodded, feeling embarrassed. He shook his head a pulled me closer. We were only about 3 inches apart from each other. "Emma, I would never hit you" he whispered.  His eyes were gleaming and his face was inching closer and closer to mine. Our lips crashed together. His lips were soft, and moved in sinc with mine. Wait! I'm only 13 and he is like what? 20 or something!

I quickly push him off me and we are both in shock.

" Emma! I'm sorry, I was just-i mean I was umm." He tried to find an explanation.

" You kissed me" I said In shock. It was the only thing that was going through my mind. He kissed me.

" Emma, I'm sorry, it won't happen again. I swear!" He begged. I swallowed hard and relaxed a bit. It was just a kiss. Not a big deal right? Yes of course it's it's a big deal! He is 29 something and your 13! Isn't that called sexual abuse or something!?!?!

" It's ok" I choked out. He sighed in relief and begged me not to tell anyone. I agreed, and finished making cereal.

I went into the living room to watch some spongebob. After 10 minutes Harry comes and sits down beside me.

" hello love, how are you today?" He asked me

"F-fine" I lied. I was being abused, how could I be fine. Harry chuckled at sponge Bob and Put his arm around me. I flinched as he rubed his fingers on my cheek.

" Sorry" he said.

"It's ok" I say. He pulled his arm back and turned his attention on the tv. I was feeling tired for some reason a decided to take a short nap.

" Harry, I'm going up stairs to sleep." I tell harry. He nodded and I went up stairs. 

When I get into louis ' s room, the door closes fast behind me. I didn't touch the door, so I didn't close it. I was about to turn around, but someone slapped their hand over my mouth. I tried to get free but it was useless.

" Shh, it's just me" said a familiar voice. I looked up and saw Niall with a worried look on his face.

He is going to hurt me.

I thought.

He is going to hurt me again.

I started to panick again, and everything went dizzy. My heart was beating rapidly, and my hands were getting sweaty. 

" Emma, are you ok?" Asked Niall. No I wasn't ok.

"Panick *deep breath* attack" I say as I try to catch my breath. Nialls eyes grew wide, and he picked me up. I was Carried over to the bed and was sat in Nialls lap. He rocked me back and forth while he sang a song. After a few minutes everything went back to normal.

" Th-thank you " I whispered.  I was to scared to say anything , because i was afraid he would hit me. He smiled and I got off of him.

" Why were you haveing a panick attack?" He asked. I looked down at my feet and played with my fingers. I was to embarrassed to say anything.

"What do you want?" I choked out. Niall looked disappointed that I didn't answer him, but i don't want him to know.

"I umm saw louis kiss you, and wanted to make sure you were umm ok" he said. It was quiet in the room after that, because I didn't know what to say.

"I-im tired Niall." I say, hinting that it is time for him to leave.

" Ok, but please don't hang out with just one of us. We may seem nice, but we do  wrong kind of things alot." He demanded. I chuckled at the thought of me thinking that they seemed nice. They were abusing me!

Sorry it's short you guys, somethings have been happening.

Love ya♡♡♡