She Kills Me

Jealousy

So Zoe (being straight as a ruler) has dated a few (1 maybe 2) guys. And ive been jealous of both of them. Some may say im obsessed and yes when it comes to Zoe i guess im a little infatuated. But come on. Its been nearly three years since my crush on her began. I have the right to be infatuated.

But this is all completely off as to why i started writing this little story.

So today just so happens to be my friend, Kierra's birthday. (Happy Birthday KiKi if youre reading this ❤) and there is this girl at her sleepover b-day party, named Mylleena. (As per mentioned in the title of the last "chapter").

Mylleena is the bane of my existence. I hate her with a burning passion. She talks so much sh*t about me. She thinks she owns the god damn world and i f*cking hate it.

So as soon as Mylleena got in and turned her back i squinted and made a dirty face at her. Right after, i look over at Zoe who smiles that sweet beautiful smile -her dimples absolutely killing me- and mouths "I saw that". I cant help but mouth back "Saw what?" At that, she smiles again and goes back to playing guitar. God she's so beautiful when she plays guitar. She gets a passionate look on her face and she escapes into the music. I love it.

Now would probably be an acceptable time to describe my Zoe. Shes tall. Taller than our entire group of friends but not freakishly tall. Shes 5'8". She has this long brown hair that has this natural wave. One side of her hair is nearly completely shaved off and she got it shaved in this intricate pattern and i find it so amazing. She's tall and slender. Her voice is so soothing. I love how passionate she gets about things she likes. She's never afraid to tell it as it is without being cocky. She's absolutely amazing. She's the type of girl you'd just have to meet. And i love her.

Ok so back to my original reason for writing this "chapter"

Mylleena was here and her and Zoe were embracing. This of course sparked a bit of jealousy in the pit of my stomach being as i wish to be the one held in her arms. And being teenage girls we do that "bae" and "wifey" thing. Well Mylleena was sitting on the couch and she says to Zoe, "Zoe you should sit down so i can lay on you." So Zoe does and Mylleena lays on her and Zoe wraps her arm around Mylleena. At this point my jealousy and sadness as risen to a very high level. But it gets worse. Zoe and Mylleena tangle their legs together and Zoe says, "This is my bae. Mylleena is my bae." Ouch. Talk about a roundhouse kick to the face mixed with a f*cking hard a** punch to the stomach. I sit there watching the girls intertwined on the couch all the while my jealousy is just f*cking rising.

(OMG REAL QUICK UPDATE I WAS SITTING SIDEWAYS ON THE COUCH AND SHE SAT SO HER BACK IS AGAINST ME AND OMG I LOVE HER HALP MEEEEE I CAN FEEL HER BACK LEANING AGAINST ME AND IM DYING I LOVE HER AND I JUST WANNA HUG HER SO HARD AND KISS HER ALL OVER THE FACE)

So as i was saying. My jealousy was rising at an alarming speed. I had never been more jealous of a woman in my life. I wanted to be the one in her arms. I wanted to be the one with my legs intertwining hers. I wanted to be the one she called "bae/wifey." I wanted her to be mine. I want to feel her lips against mine. I want to hear her heartbeat as she hugs me cause my head would just barely rest on her chest. I want to be the one allowed to play with her long beautiful hair. I want to be the one she says "I love you" to. I want to be the one she looks at with that passion in her eyes. I want her. All of her.

(Another update she went from sitting to laying right beside me and the couch is just big enough that we fit but also just small enough that we are close together....god i love her)