Speechless

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Quinn

"Quinn! It's Lunchtime!" I'm not hungry. Not at all. I'm not talking to anyone. Not since my twin sister was kidnapped and they discovered, that she was murdered. I didn't speak for a while, it's been 4 months ago since she was kidnapped. My parents decided to move, now we live in Malibu. I had to leave all my friends back in Connecticut, but I don't feel sad about that, because I wasn't speaking with them, after my sister died, anyway.

"Quinn! Did you hear me?!" I know, she don't expects an answer. My parents gave up their hope a while ago. I love my mom, she's always there for me and gives me everything I want, but I don't care anymore. I want my sister. I miss her! Hailee was a beautiful girl. She was like my best friend and now she's gone and she'll never come back.

After I had my lunch I go upstairs in my room. The only thing I do is sitting in my room and emptying my moving boxes.
I almost emptied all of them. There are three more and I thought about emptying them now so I'm finished. I take one of the last boxes and open it, what I see in there makes me cry, it always makes me cry, when I think about fun moments with my sister.
In the box are things of my sister, her favorite things. I take out a t-shirt, it still smells a little like her. I change my t-shirt with hers and just look at all the pictures I've got from her, with her and our parents, with us. We always called us 'the Gilbo-Girls' because Gilbo is our last name. And nö, we weren't thinking about the series „Gilmore Girls"!...

I want her to come back.

Tomorrow is school again, my parents decided to move after I finished the school year. I don't want to go to school again. Everybody is so loud there. I have to talk there. I didn't talk to anyone since my sister died and I don't want to change that. I can't. It's like I forgot how to speak. I miss my sister and my old me. I was so happy with Hailee, I've always been optimistic and had a lot of friends at school, the same friends Hailee had.

After my mom forced me to eat something, I went in my room and lay on my bed. Now I'm reading a book, a book about a girl which has a beautiful life and a boyfriend who cares about her. I'd love to be her.

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My alarm clock rings and as I wake up I see my book in my pillow and my light, which is still on. I probably fell asleep last night while reading my favorite book.
I go downstairs and eat some cereals. I'm not hungry but I know, my mom would force me again to eat something like she always does.
I grab my school bag and walk to the bus station. The people here are so happy they seem to be glad living here in Malibu. Well at least they are...

The school is bigger than my old school, it's almost huge. The students look at me like they've never saw a girl before. Maybe they don't get new students that often. After I got my timetable I go to my first class and look at the students, they seem to be tired and not motivated. Just like I am. I am tired of my life, tired of waking up every morning, tired of living my life without Hailee, tired of living my life. I can't, I'm too weak and tired.

My last class is maths, I like it, because you don't have to talk and discuss like you have to do it in other classes. My teacher is nice, I like him he can explain the exercises good.

After school I go home grab my headphones and take my daily walk at the Beach. I know other people in my age would go home and just watch a movie or Netflix. But I'm different, different since Hailee was kidnapped.

The beach is beautiful I like the doves and the sound of the ocean, it's so calming. I have to think about my sister, about all the happy moments we had together. She would hold my hand and we would run together along the beach, we would do a race and just be happy, she would start a water fight and we would laugh together. We would laugh a lot.

While I walk along the beach I see a guy, but I don't really realize him. I don't realize him until he's walking towards me. I think he just wants to walk the same way as I do, but he don't stops walking towards me until he's in front of me. I stop walking and turn around otherwise I would walk directly in him. But he follows me and walks next to me.

That's strange.
I take my headphones and put them in my pocket because my phone needs a charger, it's empty. I hate that! I start walking faster and pretend not to notice him, but he also walks faster so he walks next to me again. I stop walking and look at him.
He has green eyes and chocolate brown hair his hair is curly and his skin is tanned from the sun and he is taller than me, probably one foot. He is pretty and looks cute. His eyes, they are telling stories, stories about his past. He's wearing a mask of happiness, he seems to have a good life, but his eyes tell stories, sad stories I can't tell what kind of sadness.
"Hello, my name is Niall. Are you new here?" I just stare at him, I never thought a boy like him would talk to me. He starts laughing as he catches me staring at him. I become red as he laughs. Oh, that's embarrassing!!! I just nod and walk away...

Ahhh! This is my first book and I don't know if it's good🙈

Please comment!

Don't be upset, if there are typos, I live in Germany and am half American and half German so that's the only reason, why I tried to write a book in english...

Your Natalie♥️