Speechless

3.

He saw me turning around and walking the other direction, I know, because he follows me and shouts my name. "Quinn, Quuuuuuuuuuuuiiiinn?!" Maybe he'll go away if I ignore him...
Hopeless.
He's faster than I thought he is. "Hey wait, why were you walking away and ignoring me? Are you always like that?" He laughs and looks at me as he expects an answer. 'Are you always like that?' Sure, I've never talked before, I always ignore people and walk away and I don't miss anybody, nooooo, how could it be like that? Nobody else would miss his twin and cry always before going to sleep and nobody would even think about murdering himself because the twin was kidnapped.
No I'm fine. That's the perfect moment for telling him that he's an asshole! Who does he think he is?! Why the hell does he think he can ask me, if I have always been like that?! I should tell him that he should shut up and piss off! But guess what: I can't! I really would like to cry and shout and yell at somebody, I would really like to get rid of all my emotions and everything what happened. After that I think I would need somebody who hugs me and makes me think that everything is going to be okay! I need someone like that, someone who understands me without words. These words, I never thought, they can be so dangerous...

"Ups, I didn't mean to make you angry, sorry!" My face and my eyes probably told everything and Niall saw it. Shit! Why do I have to have such stupid eyes like that?!

Niall

"Sorry, are you now mad at me? Please don't, because I don't want you to be mad at me." Any other girl, but not her! What?! Wait, I don't care if she's mad at me, because she's not even talking with me, maybe she talks with other people but not with me.
That's new for me, it's new that somebody don't wants to talk with me, because I'm the most famous boy at school. Every girl wants to talk to me and want me as their boyfriend. Yes, I know all of that, and I hate it. I hate it, that every girl stares at me like they never saw a boy before.
I really don't know why, but I didn't care when Quinn was staring at me. Maybe because I was also staring at her. I think she's different, I think she's not like all the other girls: she don't thinks, that she's the best and she don't puts the whole makeup package on her face. Maybe because she don't has to...
Ohh, man Niall! Could you please stop thinking , that she looks like a princess and is so beautiful, that she don't even has to use makeup.

And again, she didn't answer my question, she was not even nodding or something like that. I should give up and just try to get her out of my head!

Well, and that's what I do. Okay I'm trying to...

Quinn

I shouldn't be that mean, because, he can't now anything about my past. But it still makes me angry, thinking about what he said! I don't know, why he was just doing that, but Niall took my arm and pulled me to a stone, which lays near the ocean. He just sits down and tells me to sit next to him. Now I'm sitting here, staring at him like an idiot.

Okay, I should definitely stop that! He probably thinks now, that I'm stupid. Okay, maybe I am, but I should not look like that!

„Hey Quinn, please listen to me. I think we should start again, from the beginning. I promise, that I'll think first, before I ask you such stupid questions." That's cute, but he definitely should've done that before. Thinking before talking is always a good idea.
I don't know what to do now. I would really like to tell him something, just say something like ,yes' or ,okay, we can start again, from the beginning'. But no, I can't! I don't even know, how it works. How can I talk? What do I have to do? I need a instruction, or somebody who can help me and teach me how to talk. „Quinn? Are you okay? I understand, if you don't want to talk with me anymore, but if you are ignoring me, please tell me so I can stop trying to talk to you. It wouldn't be successful." I can't Niall, I cant! I just start crying, I cant even control it, the tears just run don my cheeks and I sit there getting rid of all my emotions. Niall looks a little shocked, but he turns to me and just hugs me, he holds me in his arms and strokes my back.
I think, I like him a little more than I initially planned it... ups
I hug hin too and try to stop crying. „Quinn, are you okay? Did I do something wrong again? I swear, I thought about what I said." why is this asshole so cute?! I should hate him, because he said something wrong about my sister and that hurt me. But no! Instead of going on being an asshole, he's cute and hugs me and cared about me. Should I stop trying to hate him?
I just shake my head to tell him, that it's right and okay what he's doing. I think, he understands me because he looks happy.

Niall

„Can I tell you something?" I don't know, why I want to tell her about my past, but it seems to be the right moment to tell her. I never told anybody about it before, and I was planning to keep it as my biggest secret. But Quinn, what is this girl doing with me? I can't think or be normal anymore. Not while she is there, not when she's with me or if I'm even thinking about her.
Quinn looks a little surprised but still nods.

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Hey! Sorry, that you had to wait that long. I had my exams this month so I hadn't have enough time to write a new chapter...😬

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