Demons in our mind

#Bellletstalk

I was holding back tears as I answered questions the media asked about Linnea. "If you don't know she was just hospitlized for self harm and social anxiety". "So William how is Linnea's hospitlization hitting you". I responded this time while letting the tears go "It's been hitting me pretty hard, I have known her all my life and so knowing that she was doing this without me knowing is hard. I just want it to be all over, I want her to be okay..." By this time I was sobbing and it was quite oblivious as I continued talking "S-s-she is the only person in my life that can make me as happy as she does. When we moved to Sweeden when I was 14 it was hard knowing I had to leave my Suicidal best friend 4,351 miles away it was hard. Of course it wasn't as bad back then but it has always been hard knowing she was doing and no matter what I did I couldn't stop it." After The media had left I was sitting in my stall with my head in my hands when Mitch, Auston, Patrick, and John came up to me and Patrick kneeled down to me and said "Hey buddy we were watching you from our stalls and we rally think you should go visit her". I then said "it's my fault, I didn't stop her". Auston then sat down next to me and said "there was nothing you could have done to change the outcome". "But I could have been there for her." I started saying "I could have stopped her."

Later that day I was talking with Alex telling him what happened and let's just say a sensitive topic came up.

Alex-bold William-italics

Alex I don't know what to do. She's been there for me my whole life I don't know how to be there for her.

Will calm down. The only thing you can do is help her. Just tell her how you feel.

Alex I can't do that to her

Your hitting her more Not telling her

I guess you right. Talk to you later. Bye man

See ya

A/N 

Sorry for the short first chapter