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Chapter 6: depression is worst then anxiety

School gives me anxiety that's because I'm very antisocial sometimes I never hangout in the quad I hangout in a classroom all the time but when class starts there's no going back sometimes I don't even pay attention because of my depression I think of things that are dark but why do I do it maybe because of my past my teacher gave me a lunch detention for no reason I didn't even do anything it's like things are against me but why do people like to harm people because people are cruel this world is cruel life is cruel every time when I do my work I squeeze my hands until the nail of my skin digs in I start bleeding I don't show it to no body I start breathing harder and harder everyone looks at me if something is wrong with me but then it's too late school bell rings and it's time to go home except for me I have to go to my program that I joined I do have friends there but they always make fun of me I always say they just joke around with me but sometimes I feel like I don't belong there for reasons maybe it's just because of who I am inside even if I'm really dark but once I get home that's when I my depression really starts I just get dropped off because my mom is still at work I do my chores when I get home after that I'm all alone in my room at 8:00 pm at night it's dark I start getting anxiety I stop it once I just turn on the tv that's the only way it stops the school year is not even to a end yet how can I still survive with this kinda life