Describe what you're feeling
over stimulation
describe what you are thinking
i cannot
im zoned out and aware that the stares and glares and glances of thought are all that they are
developed irrational ponderings
i have anxiety
he is an annoying neighbor that doesnt stop knocking at the door asking for sugar
when i have explained that i am diabetic and i do not keep any in my house
you trigger my anxiety
for all the right reasons
the same ones why I should not be here
i feel so unstable lately
how can you say i look so put together
so confident
so productive
i am falling apart and feel too shy to speak up
i dream of having a car so i could drive so fucking far away
from the madness and create serenity within the darkness
i never wanted so much to scream so damn loud
i am only one amongst this small crowd
frankly i want to die but instead i smile
can we just stop and listen to sound of silence
because i am screaming for help from this little cottage
im crying as i type these words
only two halves of a borderline verse
sometimes i wish i had the confidence to put a bullet inside my head but i just buy sugar instead.
