Writing my feelings for you~

Dreams - Mark Lee

I saw you in my dreams for the first time around October/November of 2018. I remember it clearly and I miss dreaming about you. I'm going to write it in as much detail as I can although I'm not great at story telling.

So I was in an auditorium and there was a concert going on and it was actually the last performance.
The auditorium seemed middle sized and looked like a place I visited rarely as a child (in Venezuela). There were actually four stages that were only slightly elevated, maybe five stairs, there were a lot of people performing on each stage. I did not know or recognise the song but it was a goodbye and thank you song like at the end of a concert. I was actually kind of close to the stage and I recognised a few NCT members. I remember seeing Taeil, Doyoung, Jisung, Taeyong, Lucas, Kun and Johnny and of course you, Mark, with brown hair (irrelevant but so that you know everything) all dancing happily. This dream wasn't long after I realised I liked you, a lot haha, so I was really surprised to see you in my dream.

Anyways, in my dream, the concert ended and I found myself very close to the stage, it was kind of like a backstage but I could still see the crowd leaving the place. All the artists (which were all wearing a pastel pink t-shirt so I figured it was a SMTOWN Concert) including NCT members were huging and congratulating each other. I saw the members hugging tightly, I saw you a few meters away from me being back hugged by Taeyong and I took a few steps foward walking past people hugging without making eye contact with you because you had your attention towards the stage. When I was a couple feet away and Taeyong wasn't hugging you anymore, Johnny came in front of you and hugged you very tightly and you two laughed and giggled, as I watched I started smiling to myself.

Then immediately after Johhny stopped hugging you and moved away, I very quickly kissed your right cheek and I snuck myself into your arms and hugged you tight by your waist. You were surprised, I remember a little gasp and a very small stumble back but you hugged me back almost instantly. We were hugging for a few seconds then something clicked in your mind, I think you smelled my scent from my hair as I was hugging you and you seemed to recognise me and hugged me a lot tighter by my waist and I put my arms around your neck. Our bodies were almost fused together by the force we were both using to bring each other so close to the point I could feel everything and I know it's weird (and honestly embarrasing) but I could feel your chest rising as you took a breath, your heart beating against my right upper chest area, your warm arms on the side of my ribs as your hands were on my middle-low back, I could feel your ....😶. We were so close physically that my head was on your shoulder, my face facing your neck as I breated calmly. I saw a mole on your tanned neck, right in front of my lips and I kissed it lightly. Then I went back and kissed it with my mouth slightly open and you relaxed. This is literally so embarrasing but I was making out with your neck, softly though I'm not that crazy.

I remember I thought about giving you a hickey but immediately stopped myself from doing so because it would be bad if someone saw it (I am a responsible woman). You seemed to enjoy it as weird as it sounds, you were humming softly (not sexually at all) like the singing type and kept nodding and hugging me tighter. After what felt like hours but was actually just a minute, I brubtly stopped and just hugged you facing away from your face, you put your hand in the back of my head to make me look at you. I did, for a milisecond and said "Bye Mark" and ran away. I walked past you and squeezed through other people to get to a bathroom that had a black door and was to the left of one of the four mini-stages.

This is already quite long so I'm going to divide it here. Look for Dreams pt. 2 if you want to keep reading (it's not as cringey I promise)