Writing my feelings for you~

Dreams - Mark Lee pt. 2

Continuation of the dream.

I was in the bathroom (public bathroom) when I went in I closed the  black door so nobody could come inside. I kept walking back and fowards, panicking and crying thinking about what just happened, I had a panic attack in the toilet basically. I remember washing my face and as I was drying it, I heard Johnny's voice from outside of the toilet, he sounded concerned amd worried. I remember he asked if I was okay and what had happened that I ran away like that, he wanted to comfort me as a friend, of course. I opened the door and let him through, I told him that I was okay as I dried my face and smiled at him .He gave me a bottle of cold water and a quick hug and encouraged me to go out of the toilet saying it was all okay and that no one, except him, had noticed what had happened.

I trusted him and went out of the toilet. As I came out I saw people crowded around the mini-stage in front of the toilet. I had to walk past it to exit the auditorium but I noticed that green haired Chenle was at the back of the crowd and looked at me when I came out of the toilet, we made eye contact, he looked surprised to see me and then turned back towards the stage. I looked at the stage and saw you again alone in the stage with a mic wearing a black botton-up shirt. Johnny aka the tallest man I've ever seen got your attention and as I was standing right in front of him, our eyes consequently meet. I was like in dramas, time seemed to have stopped, it was just us looking at each other until your eyes turned dark and cold and you turned away, gripping on the mic and directing your view somewhere else. I honestly felt heartbroken and guilty for what had happened and saw how that had affected you and changed you. Me leaving after being so close and personal with you, I could see how that broke you.

When you turned away from me, you started speaking in English quite agressively. I remember clearly what you were saying and your actions, walking across the stage moving you hands around as you talked, you looked like a preacher. "I want to give you all a life lesson and I hope you listen. You should never in the world play with someone's feelings. Never ever! use someone that way! You will gain nothing from it other than pain, maybe some satisfaction to see someone inocently obsessed with you but believe me, It is NOT worth it. You gain nothing from it! Only the most inhumane and evil people in this world do that" you looked at me as you said that last sentence and my heart completely broke and I mean, I felt it break in my chest, I felt pain. You continued saying things like "You must not mess around with someone else's heart! They have feelings! Hearts break and they hurt! If you ever break someone's heart you will never be forgiven". I really felt it then the brokenness was at 100%, I was tearing up as I looked at you for the last time and headed to the nearest exit with a blurry vision.

Part 3 is optional. It was more about my feelings after this and feeling empty and in need for comfort. A song expressed my feelings and a altough the lyrics were slightly altered in my dream the song is very sentimental so somehow it linked perfectly with my dream. The song is in Spanish, it is called Abrázame by Camila. I'm working on the translation...