STUCK (TordTom)

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Tom's P.O.V

I suddenly felt something grab my hand and so I looked up and saw Tord looking at me with an obviously worried expression, "What's wrong?" I asked as I tried my best to smile.

We are now on the way to the Home for the Aged but Tord decided to stop by the park where had our date to see if it was suitable for Auntie Rosy's liking. To our surprise... the park didn't change much. It still had a lot of trees and fresh-cut grasses. It was still fresh but there was a new fountain added on the center.

I guess the owner still had it well managed. Nonetheless... It still felt the same.

Tord traced his eyes from my head to toe, "What happened in there? When I got in you seem to be acting differently.." he said as he lean over to me.

After being told about Tafira's story, I just couldn't help but having the want to hug Tord. I couldn't believe it... I actually wanna hug him because now I knew.. Why he had to break it up with me.

But did he want it?

"What did Taf say to you?" Tord asked, pulling Tom closer to him.

'She was the reason why we broke up.'

I felt sick thinking about it... It felt like I'm blaming her for everything that had happened. I don't even know if it's really her fault. But what I was just told... Is what I only know. I don't know about anything else nor am I allowed to assume things...

I shake my head and pointed at the pond right ahead of us, "Look! Isn't that the pond where you saw those little duckies?" I tried exclaiming really happily. I hate acting like I was okay. It just didn't feel right.

I sprinted over to the pond and kneel on the edge of the land and desperately searched for a family of ducks on the pond. I could tell that Tord was behind me... Watching me...

I knew he had a sharp eye and that he could tell that I am running away...

"Hey."

I jumped in surprise and looked up to him, "Hmm?" I gave him a fake smile even though I'm really trying not to hug him right now.

"What's wrong? It seems like you've been avoiding telling me something." Tord said as he sat down beside me. I took the chance to stand up and walk away again but he held my hand. Squeezing it tightly and obviously not wanting to let go, "She told you, huh?"

When I heard Tord chuckle I immediately pull my hand out of his, "She told me.. But... I'm still not sure. I'm scared of believing... I really want to believe what she told me but... I'm not sure if I trust her anymore. Who am I supposed to trust Tord? " I asked before looking up and look him in his eyes, "I feel so stuck... Please help me with this."

I was begging and I sounded like it. I was confused and scared that my voice was cracking painfully. I was trying my best to keep a smile but knowing how much people I've lost trust on. I didn't know who am I supposed to be smiling to.

Tord's expression darkened and he was just staring at me with wide eyes. At this time I'm sure my tears were about to fall but I kept it in and muster all my strength just to smile.

"You told me that you'd try to win my trust back... right?... Well... Now's the time where I need that..." my voice cracked and so suddenly.. I felt arms pulling me in.

Tord hugged me as tight as he could that it was actually difficult for me to breathe.

I started crying again, pouring all my emotions out to reach for him. He was the only one beside me right now and I am confused and frightened. I had to cry on his shoulder..