The Last Two:Surviving w/ Shawn Mendes

Tears

I'm so stupid! I had to kill this guy before he could even look at me. I was holding Tommy's necklace tightly. I was really upset. Amy looked like a ghost. Her face was a pail. I already missed him.
Shawn: I think you should give me your gun.
Me: why?!
Shawn: You are really upset. I can't trust you right now. It's for your best!
Me: No.
Amy: JUST GIVE IT TO HIM!
I stood up there. They hated me. I'm the one who should be dead right now. We were in the middle of nowhere. In a Forest.
Shawn: Listen to me carefully. When it gets dark we will climb the trees and we will sleep in the branches, okay?
Me: Why?
Shawn: Zombies can't climb trees.
For the first time, I felt like I was alone. They hated me so much. I knew was guilty. But what should I do?! I feel the same way they do! It isn't fair! I hated myself too! But I couldn't bring Tommy back to life!
 
  It was getting dark and Mike and Amy climbed one of the trees. Shawn looked at me.
Me: What?!
Shawn: nothing.
He was looking at me the same way they do.
Me: OH SO YOU GONNA BLAME ME TOO?!
Shawn: TOMMY IS DEAD BECAUSE HE SAVED YOUR LIFE! BECAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO PROTECT YOURSELF...
I stared at him.
Me: I don't wanna be on the same tree as you!
Shawn: you don't have a choice!

    It was already late. I blamed myself too. I wanted to die. I wanted to make up for myself. They wanted me to die, so that what I decided to do...
   I carefully pulled out the gun from Shawn's pocket. He was sleeping deeply. I went down. I looked around if someone is around me. I put the gun against my head. I slowly closed my eyes. A tear fell down my cheek. My hand was shaking. All I had to do was just to pull the trigger.
Amy: Y/N PLEASE NO!
I turned around.
Shawn: Y/n PUT THE GUN DOWN DARLING PLEASE!
Mike: YOU WON'T DIE HERE!
I started tearing up.
Me: You...want me to die...I'm guilty...I had to die!
I closed my eyes again.
Shawn: Darling listen to me! I don't hate you!
I shook my head...
Amy: If you die...what am I gonna do?!
Mike: Tommy is watching us right now. And I you die he won't be satisfied!
I fell on my knees crying. They came up to me.
Shawn hugged me and let me cry in his shoulder. Amy has caressed my hair.
Mike: Listen to me, sister! We won't do it without you, okay?
I hugged all of them.
Shawn: Promise me...don't do this again.
Me: I...I...pro...promise. We saw the sunrise.
Shawn: I think it's time to go.
He caressed my hair while talking to Amy and Mike. I helped them with the stuff and we were ready for the next challenge...