No One Seemed to care, So now neither do I

I want people to see, I want people to know
But I told, and I tell, but no one seemed to listen
No one seemed to care, so now neither do I.
But he hurt me, he scared me
He might not have raped me, but he was pretty close to
With his weight on top of me I felt like I was suffocating
The look in his eyes terrified me
But I wasn’t going to let him rape me
I wasn’t going to let him
I wanted to scream, I wanted to yell
But I couldn’t, I couldn’t find my voice
I couldn’t find the words
I kept thinking my mom, my sisters, my cousins, his wife
They’re there, they’re right on the other side of that door
How could he, why would he,
But no, no, no, I won’t let him. 
I wouldn’t, I wouldn’t, I wouldn’t
Let him rape me. 
I wouldn’t stop, I wouldn’t stay still and let him have him way
I wiggled and I wiggled until I got free
I ran to the door and I walked out
I sat down on the couch
I watch him walk out that room
And the look he gave me
The look he gave me sent chills down my spine
The look he gave me said one day, one day you’ll see. 
That look he gave me, left me scared
It left me ashamed and embarrassed
It left me, me disgusted with myself
Angry with myself,  because
I couldn’t scream, I couldn’t yell
For help
The look he gave me left me disgusted with myself because
I almost didn’t get away. 
I was almost raped with my family right on the other side of the door.
But did I run out that room screaming and yelling
No
I stayed quiet, 
No
I kept it to myself, I kept my mouth shut
I let it destroy me
I let it lower my self-esteem
I hate me because what he tried to do
He replaced my innocence with fear
Fear of man
He hurt me, but I have to live the pain
He scared me, but no one seems to see
I’ve tried to tell, but no one ever listens
I’ve told, but no one cares
So now neither do I.