𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐌𝐞 𝐀𝐧𝐲𝐰𝐚𝐲

𝖙 𝖗 𝖆 𝖛 𝖊 𝖑 𝖑 𝖊 𝖗 𝖘

This was the moment I had been waiting for. However, I am entirely devastated by leaving this life behind. Everything I knew is here, but then I thought, maybe that's why I have to leave.

I stand outside Anne's car, in front of terminal 3. The one-way ticket rubbed in between my fingers. Tears hung out of my eyes as I scanned over my information - are they tears of sadness or tears of joy? On the one hand, I didn't want to leave the people I had here and go to a completely new place. But I am not going to be stuck here any longer.

Anne and Marie walk around the car to stand on either side of me, both carrying one of my bags. A quick glance at the many bags brings a laugh to my voice. "Who knew I had so much crap?" I choke out a laugh, tears still brimming my eyes. Anne turns first to look at me, but all she does is smile - I can see in her eyes that she is a loss for words.

Then Marie sets her hand on my shoulder, "Let's not wait any longer because you might miss your flight if you get my mother crying."

All of us take one of the bags and walk through the front doors to the terminal. Suddenly, everything became so real for me. I am finally getting something that I've always dreamed about and it is just a 6-hour plane ride away. Without saying much to each other, we walk to the cue to wait to register for the flight. After a few minutes of small talk, my bags were checked and it was time for the final goodbye.

Marie linked her arm through mine and walked with me towards the gate. I know that her small rambling as we walked closer and closer to security, is because she is trying not to cry. When the time comes, she won't show me her tears, instead, she will wait until I am out of her line of sight to break down in her ugly sobs. Anne walks in front of both of us and when she stops, Marie's rambling stops as well. Both of them stand in front of me with somber expressions.

"Please, the two of you are going to keep me from leaving!" I reluctantly release a small sob.

"Are you sure about all of this?" Anne asks, but she knows I won't change my answer. I give her a sympathetic smile anyway.

"I'm sure Anne."

Marie looks to her mother before speaking to both of us. "Well I'm not going to tell you to stay but I just want to say," she pauses - holding in a sob, "I just want to say to not forget us." Against her will, she chokes out a small sob. To comfort her, I pull them both into a tight hug.

"I don't think I could ever forget the two of you." I begin to pull out of the embrace to look at both of their faces, now stained with tears. Reluctantly, while looking at them, I begin to cry as well. I push out of the hug quickly and whip away the stray tears that have fallen down my cheeks. "Both of you are making me cry - I promised myself I wouldn't cry." While speaking, a few tears fall once again down my cheeks.

I know that my leaving hurts both of them, but I know that if I stay exactly where I am, I will never amount to anything - I'll become like my parents. "Okay, I think we've both cried enough to flood a river so we will finally let you leave," Anne says finally breaking the silence growing around our group.

With my suitcase in my hand, I turn towards the gate and walk towards the security check. I wave to them one last time before they disappear from my view. I was officially on my own. I got through the security check without any problems and carried on my way to the gate within the hour. Along the way, I stopped at a few stores to grab food and something to entertain myself well I wait for boarding to start. Honestly, I was only trying to keep my mind busy so I wouldn't have time to stop and think about my decision to move to London. It was going to be a long two hours before I boarded. Eventually, I did get on my flight and got settled in my seat beside a lovely old English lady who had come to Toronto to see a niece of hers. She had plenty of stories to tell and I was a willing listener. So we ended up talking for most of the flight and when she asked why I was going to England, I told her I was moving for school. I also made a joke that I was set to marry the prince of England - she had a huge laughing fit after that comment. I knew I was joking but I thought mentioning to her that I did actually know the prince would be a bit of an overstep. She fell asleep after 3 hours and I followed suit.