I Wish

I like her, maybe?

Harry's P.O.V.

I don't know what has happened to me. I mean I just can't stop thinking about her.

Girls freak out when they see me. They are like, "Oh my god! Harry, I can't believe it!" They literally scream on our face and this girl was like, " Yeah. I know you're Harry Styles from One Direction." Normally girls don't show such attitude but Ash, yeah I'm talking about that Indian girl whom we met at the airport.

The first time I saw her yelling at the airport staff, I felt the urge to go near her and see her closely. Her hair, her slim body, her dark eyes, her mouth and oh her lips! They were perfectly curved!

Maybe I fancy her? I don't know. She looks like a simple and sweet girl and I don't want to expose her to this damn world.

"What are you thinking, mate?" My best friend, Louis asked as he sat down beside me.

"Um nothing just. Uh was thinking about the airport incident." I shrugged.

"Yeah, that girl. Annabeth right? I know she was rude." He snorted.

Yes! I'm successful in hiding my emotions but how can this happen with Louis? Normally he is the one to read my mind first. Anyways that's good.

"No, she was right. Just put yourself in her shoes and think. If they would have gone with us then obviously the fans and media would have clicked photos and made it public. They would have received hate and its very depressing, Lou. I know that, I've gone through all this." I lectured him. He gave me a sympathetic smile.

I have been receiving so much hate recently. They all are because of how I get dressed, how I keep my hair or which girl do I go out with. Why can't they just focus on what we really want them to be on and that's our music.

"Aye, Harry! What are ya doin', man? Come here, you have a recording now." An Irish accent echoed in the studio. That has to be Niall.

I recorded my voice for our new single Best Song Ever.

Uh! Ash has gone me crazy. Now I feel like I should take her small face in my hands and just kiss her right on her lips.

"Have they decided which songs are we  gonna sing this Saturday?"  Louis asked.

"They told us to decide." Zayn answered.

So it was decided that we would sing WMYB, One Thing, Little Things, Irresistible and Up all Night.

We were going to the Oxford University. They have their freshers party and we are invited to perform. I hope they both are not in that Uni because I heard they are here to study in a Uni.

I just don't understand whether I want her or not. I won't want to ruin her life by being with me. I have had many girlfriends but just because I'm afraid of commitment I left them rather dumped them.

I don't want the same to happen with her. She doesn't deserve that. She deserves much better. Done! No matter how much I like her I won't let her close to me.

I and Louis are driving home. The drive is silent and I'm looking out of the window and Louis is humming songs which are playing on the radio.

We both reached home and I sprang on the couch.

"Hey what would you go for? Juice or ice cream?" Louis yelled from the kitchen as he was checking the fridge.

"Juice, please."

He came with a juice can and an ice cream bowl. He handed me my thing and sat on the couch.

"Hey is there something that's worrying you? You can always talk to me , you know that already." Louis told me and I looked at him.

There's nothing I have hidden from Lou and I can't do it now either but I'm not even sure!

"No nothing. Just normal things." I said without making eye contact.

"Okay. Lets play a game." He said and I looked at him with a confused expression.

"A game where in I would say a word and you have to say anything that comes to your mind when you think of that word." He said.

It was quite weird but I agreed anyways.

"Okay um rain." He started.

"My dream kiss!" I smiled sheepishly.

"Cats."

"Love them."

"Best friend."

"You."

He gave me a little hug.

"Girl."

"Smile."

"Love."

"A..."

I stopped instantly. I knew I was trapped.

"Aha! Caught you! You are in love with a girl whose name starts with A and you want to kiss her in the rain once." He smirked.

Damn he was so so right! Every single word was correct.

I looked at him with my raised eyebrows.

"Louis!" I exclaimed. " Yes, you're absolutely right. I wish for everything that you just said." I grinned happily. I hugged him more tight until I heard a knock on the door.

I groaned as I went to open the door just to see another 3 idiots smiling hugely.

"Hey Hazza!" Zayn said happily.

"Hey. Come in." I smiled back.

"What's going on?" Liam asked settling on the couch.

"Well you are supposedly at our house instead of yours so we should ask this question." I said.

"Uhm we were worried about you. You seemed quite lost at the studio. So we came over to check you, mate." Liam said and smiled honestly.

That was sweet! I'm so lucky to have these 4 idiots in my life.

"Thanks a lot all of you. Just that..."

Oh no! Here comes Louis again.

"Oh I'll tell you. Harry's in love with a girl whose name starts with A and he wants to kiss her in the rain once." He said excitedly.

I shot a glare at him.

"Was that necessary to bring up the topic of kissing in the rain?" I screamed on Louis' face.

"Yes! Absolutely it was. Thanks Louis." Zayn smirked and Louis gave me a victorious smile.

" Fine but please guys don't let her know about my feelings. I don't even know what she feels about me. I don't want to end our friendship and introduce awkwardness to our relation." I sighed.

"Wait, but we don't know her name." Niall announced.

Yeah, he had a point.

"It isn't Anna, right? That girl who denied to come with us to Mc Donalds?" He asked raising his eyebrows.

"No its her friend." I said.

"Ooohhh!" They all cooed.

"What if she happens to be an Oxford student?" Liam asked.

"She better won't. I don't want her to get close to me." I said.

They all sighed as there was no point in arguing. I'm the one who always does what I want and not what others say.