I can help you!

Part 13 (dont be mad)

Vivian pov

I felt my self moving around so I woke up and I herd jahseh getting out of bed and putting on his clothes then I hear some one knock at the door
"Come on this bitch getting aggravating"
It was that guy from earlier
"Hold up and be quite this one is sleepin"
He said whisper yelling at him and I noticed that my hands were not handcuffed anymore then jahseh unlocked the door and the guy had his hand tangled up in aiyannas hair holding it tight
"Get in the room"
The guy said shoving him in the room and whisper yelled at her
"What took you so long"
The guy asked
"Man we were fucking and after that I was tired and pasted"
"Hey bitch tell him what you told me"
He said lookin at aiyanna
"She might be pregnant with skis baby"
"WHAT"
Jahseh yelled and walked over to me and slapped me in the face as hard as he could
"Oww jah that hurt"

(Ouch)

"I DONT GIVE A HURT IF I KILLED YOU WHY TF DIDNT YOU TELL ME THAT YOU WERE PREGNANT WITH SKIS BABY"
"I don't know if I am I didn't take a test yet so how would you know"
"HOW THE FUCK DONT YOU KNOW WHEN A NIGGA CUMS IN YOU OR NOT"
"I mean he might have came in me idk"
"YOU STUIPD ASF"
He grabbed his back pack and took out a pregnancy test and gave it to me
"Go take it"
"But I'm naked and don't have to pee"
"I DONT CARE GO TAKE IT NOW"
"No"
I said pushing him away from me and rolling over and tried to go back to sleep, I could hear him sigh
"Can you get out for a minute I have to talk to her"
He sounded sad and guilty they walked out of the room and he sat down be me
"I'm sorry"
I turned over and looked at him he had a the test in his and and just kept fiddling with it as I could see some tears start to run down his face as he was counting them
"I'm just mad I think I didn't mean to hurt you I love you and me fans and I could have killed one"
"Jahseh what's wrong"
"Everything"
"What wrong"
I said again because I wanted to know
"After me and you fought and you said I was a problem and that I was a liar I was sad because I never wanted to hurt a fan so I went to my friend WiFi's house and we robbed a few peoples house and got some guns and after that we got drunk and high next day I wake up in his car"
"Is there anything else you wanted to tell me"
"After I woke up I walked to me house and when I walked in I seen my little brother sitting in the couch alone and crying I asked him what was wrong and he was scared because no one was there so then he pasted me a note it was from my mom so I read it and she said something about she had something to do and she will get Aiden a toy from leaving him alone and it made me mad"
He started crying hard
"Go on jah"
I said wiping he tears
" because she made him feel alone and he feared that I seen it in his eyes he's so young thos feeling shouldn't be felt at that age at that age you should be scared of a monster under your bed not no one is here for me and I'm alone wtf is wrong his her and when she got home I got in an argument with her and then she kicked me out I live with my manager now and he's a porn star and that's how I meant Geneva but that's not the point the point is I'm mad at my mom for what she did and said to me and what she did to Aiden knowing I would take a bullet for her and she said some your not taking Aiden I actually love him"
He started crying so hard it hurt me to see him like that
"Jahseh I-"
I didn't know what to say
"I don't want you to feel like-gco"
He hugged me
"And after I left you were on my mind like no other and I just wanted to be with you I loved you and you were mad at me and I hate crying because it makes me look like a little bitch and I hate that I hate myself I look in the mirror and I discuss my self every day and I enjoy it and I have so much negative energy I don't even know what tf positive energy is anymore every thing that is fed to me I turn it into negative energy and I enjoy that what tf is wrong with me"
"I love you"
I said because I don't like it when he's hating on himself
"What"
"I love you jahseh I was mad because Stokeley yelled at me and I should have just let you explain what happened instead I just freaked out I'm sorry I love you"
"No you don't no one does they tell me that all the time they say over and over and over again that no one love you you are alone and every one hates me"
"Who tells you that"
"The voice in my head"
"I know what your talking about they say the same thing over and over again to me and I know the feeling they give you when they say that jahseh I know why your hurting"
"I got scares on my wrist and believe it or not ski was the first one to notice"
I looked at him kind of shocked
"I remember that day he was picking me up from school and I got in his car and we started driving and I asked if he wanted to rob a few houses with me and he was chill about it and said he was good after that this song came on it I fucked with that song so I turned it up and turned and looked at me because I could tell that nigga didn't like that song so as he was looking at me I waved to be a dumb ass about it and he just looked at my wrist and there were so fresh cuts from the night before"
I see a tear fall down his face
"He slammed in the breaks and grabbed my wrist and looked at it not caring that he stopped in the middle of the street and he asked why I do it and I could tell he was worried about me but I was a ass hole and pulled my wrist away and said nothing was wrong and told him to keep driving and after that that nigga would not leave me alone that's how I cloud tell he cared and that's when I started call him vro and that's our thing now"
He sniffles his nose and lets out a little chuckle
"I love that nigga he's like my brother"
I smiled
"Awwwwwwww that's a cute story"
He looked at me with a worried face
"And I fucked his baby mama"
"Well how do we know I'm even pregnant"
"Here go take it"
He said handing to me and looking down I could see the scares so I grabbed it so he could see mine
"You never told me you cut"
"That's something I like to keep to myself"
He grabbed my wrist and put it up to his face
"When's your most recent cut"
"A week or a few days ago "
"Which one is it"
He said still examining it
"A few days ago"
"Why"
"Jah I have to pee can you let go now and close your eyes I'm naked"
I said completely ignoring the question
"I fucked you why oh so shy"
"plz just close you eyes"
"Fine"
He close them I got up and asked if I could wear he shirt and he was fine with that so I put it on it covers everything besides the bottom of my butt
"Can I look now"
"No the shirt don't cover my butt"
I can see him peeking in the corner of my eyes so I turned around and caught him
"Boy close your eyes"
"He hurried and shut his eye and I walked to the bathroom and peed on the stick and finished with what I was doing and washed my hands I put the cap back on the test and put it one the counter and walked back onto to the bed
"Are you pregnant"
"I don't know I'm waiting for it to show"

Few minutes past
"You wanna go check"
Jahseh asked looking at me worried I took a deep breath
"Yeah let's go"
We got up and walked into my bathroom I grabbed it and it had a plus on it I started crying hard jahseh held me to his chest
"I'm fucking pregnant"

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I wanted this to be long and add more but I'm to sleepy to I might post tomorrow idk should she keep it or get rid of it and next chapter is going to be sad soo yeah thanks for reading