All I Will Ever Need Is You (Wattys 2014)

All I Will Ever Need Is YOU

The sky was getting darker. The wind got stronger. Emily sat by the window looking outside. Like every normal evening, she had locked herself inside her room. She could hear soft murmurs from outside. She cringed at the bangs that erupted every now and then.

"Emily, get your lazy ass over here!" a female voice slurred. Emily sighed and hesitated but she had to get up. Her hands shook a little as she turned the lock. This all seemed like a daily routine for her. People always seem to be sick of their daily routine, well it's true since Emily hated hers. She every much would feel blessed to have someone else's daily routine. To handle her parents while they are high on meth, cocaine or whatever they could get their hands on, wasn't a life.

As she got out and she saw her mother struggling to speak. Both her mother and father laid on a couch which was pretty much torn from every corner, were high. Every time she would be scared to see them like this. They would get a bit abusive in such a state if they didn't get their wishes fulfilled. She would expectedly wait for the day to find them dead due to overdose because she somehow felt as if that day was bound to occur. After sixteen years of misery Emily had learnt to expect the worst things to happen to her but somehow they never did. She would still cope and still live another day and look forward for the next just hoping her life would get better. But it wasn't the case. Life had totally broken her after her best friend David was detected with Ewing Sarcoma,a cancer of bones.

David had been her one thing to look forward to. He would be her brother, her father or her friend whenever or however she wanted him to be. She had somehow hoped that one day they would be together more than just best friends and always thought they would end up together but those dreams were crushed when the doctor declared that he didn't have much time.

The time which was left, they would spend it together fulfilling his bucket list which only brought tears in her eyes at night. Unable to confess the love she had for him, at least she felt she didn't confess it enough, crushed her into million pieces again and again only by the thought of it. The day she confessed, not only broke her but also David. It hurt her even more when David told her that if he weren't sick they would have had a chance to be something. That was the day probably she had lost all hope in life. Felt that the world was the bitterest place to live. There was no hell, the place they resided in was 'hell' and now David had left her all alone and he was in much better place.

"What are you waiting for bring that needle", Emily jumped at the harsh venom that her mother spat. They looked like typical potheads. The whole house was a huge mess except for Emily's room. Her room was like a little oasis in between a desert. Emily made her way through the mess and found the needle and handed it to her mother who already seemed to be in no better position to be drugged but it's not like anyone of them cared cause no one did: not her mother, not her father and Emily was just used to it and her worry had died years ago.

Emily had a job which helped her a little. Working at Starbucks was bliss. Her little haven, sanctuary but at the same time it reminded her how dysfunctional her family was. Families would come, couples and people of every category would sip coffee and eat and laugh and every time she would hide behind a smiling mask cause nobody wanted a gloomy server.

School seemed distant to her. Kept her grades up so that she could get a better future, a job probably and then an apartment to stay and get the hell out of that hell hole she called home.

After handing the needle she ran to her room, grabbed a jacket and left the house. A disgusting chill ran through her body as she rubbed her hands against her coat reminding her that she had touched that needle. That thin glass that ruined her family and is still breaking them into pieces. Today wasn't her shift and she hated it because she didn't want to stay home and neither did she had a place to go. She had thought about going to her relatives, maybe to her Aunt in Florida but unfortunately she never knew her.