unexpected ; yeonbin

one

years had passed and soobin was progressively worsening. he stopped showing up at school, he barely ate and slept, he felt as if the entire world was caving in on him.   six months ago, soobin broke up with his most caring boyfriend yeonjun. he was a complete sweetheart.

six months ago, soobin planned to break up with his boyfriend to avoid hurting him today, the day he planned to end his life.   he had everything ready, his pills, his blade, the bath tub was full, and he had his notes for his family and best friend written out neatly on the side.

soobin was pacing around his room. he looked at his clock. eight pm. he had two hours before his family got home. he picked up his phone and stared at it for minutes, as if contemplating. before realising he was wasting more time, he called the suicide hotline.

it took two rings before the call was answered. soobin's eyes shed tears and his voice got all choked up at the sound of the person on the other end, speaking gently as they said, "hello, this is seoul suicide hotline, this is yeonjun speaking."   soobin stayed quiet, scared.

he saddened at the mention of his ex boyfriends name. more tears falling.

"hello?" the voice on the other end called out after minutes of silence. soobin didn't have the courage to speak, instead he sobbed into the phone.   "what's your name?" the voice spoke again.

soobin realised he had nothing left to lose.   "yeonjun hyung, it's me." he choked out. "it's soobin."   a small gasp was heard on the other end of the line.

"soobinnie? why are you calling this number, hmm? did you know my shift times here? you have my personal number." yeonjun was beyond confused, yet he refused to think of the worst.

"n-no, i-" soobin stuttered he didn't know what to do, what to say.

"soobin, what's going on?" yeonjun spoke, his voice cracking slightly, all his emotions and hurt flooding back like a tsunami.

"i c-came for reassurance. but now i know it's you, i'm saying g-goodbye, hyung." the younger stuttered out.

"no. no soobin, what're you thinking?" yeonjun spoke softly, afraid of what was happening.

"i'm sorry for causing you so much hurt, i never stopped loving you hyung."

"then w-why did you end it? end us?" yeonjun was quick with his words, scared that the conversation would end.

"you deserve better hyung. i didn't want you to be hurt when today would come. i didn't want you to be sad, but now you are. and i can't live knowing i made you sad."

"why are you doing this love? think about your family, and beomgyu. you'll break his heart. you'll break my heart, and i don't think i can deal with that twice." yeonjun spoke, tears falling down his own face.

"i'm sorry, hyung. i'm happy your voice is the last thing i hear."

"don't say that binnie, you wouldn't have called if you didn't have the least bit of hope for holding on."

"i just wanted to clear my head with a stranger before i go. but thank you for picking up hyung. thank you for loving me even when i hurt you. goodbye hyung, i love you."

before yeonjun got a chance to respond, the call had ended.   soobin put his phone down and let his tears fall endlessly. he looked at his reflection and sighed heavily, picking up the prescription pills and emptying the bottle in his hand, a slight smile on his face.

before he knew it, soobin had swallowed the pills dry. taking a step back as he turned to face the water filled bath. he climbed in, fully dressed, blade in hand. he ruthlessly cut where he thought he could easily hit a vain. lowering his head under the bloody water letting his tears dissolve.

he remained there for about twenty minutes before feeling the pills and blood loss making him slip in and out of a state. he smiled to himself.   this is it. then end to all my suffering. he thought. his eyes were closed and his breathing slowed.   goodbye.
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yeonjun was quick to go onto his own phone and text his friend taehyun,

tae

answer quick please

i really need you to fucking answer omg

TAEHYUN THIS IS LITERALLY LIFE OR DEATH FUCKING ANSWER ME DIPSHIT

geez what do you want

you know beomgyu right?

choi beomgyu? as in soobin's best friend?

yes him

give me his number

quickly

why

I'LL FUCKING TELL YOU LATER OMG JUST SEND IT PLEASE

OKAY HYUNG STOP YELLING

xxx-xxxx-xxx

jesus fucking christ ur so bossy

THANK YOU OMG

wasn't a compliment

yeonjun was quick to message the contact,

choi beomgyu?

who is this?

oh it's yeonjun. choi yeonjun

i used to date soobin before he broke up with me

how'd you get my number?

i'm sorry but that's really not important right now

it's soobin

he's gonna hurt himself

woah hold on what

i'll go to his now

i called an ambulance to go to his house a few minutes ago but you live on his street so please go fucking make sure he's still alive

oh thank you

no thank you omg

keep me informed please

ofc, i'll call his dad now