As An Ex-Villainess...

My End, Your Beginning

"Aww, i really want you to come with us, Hoshizuna! Its our last chance before all those test!!" She is pouting and whinning as she grab my arm with her two hand.

I smiled anyway "really sorry, my mom is on her night shift today, someone have to make the dinner" and i add some finishing "but make sure you make a video and pictures though!" To free her from her guilt.

She is still pouting, but release my arm "okaayy"

"See you next week?" Make sure of thing.

"Hm, see you" mission 1 completed.

Finally she left.

No no, i dont hate her, she is my good friend anyway. But sometimes, especially today, i was so mentally exhausted i need a charge, by being alone.

So, i will straight go home today, as fast as possible, and locked myself inside my room until Monday.

Of course i lied about my mom shift. Im not that good at cooking anyway.

[If you dont love yourself, then who would?]

I hear this long ago in my worst time and its indeed help me. Sounds a little cruel and selfish maybe but its true in someway. People tend to like a person with self-esteem more than a person with negative aura. You know what i mean.

Oh, i dont hide my troubles to my friends though, the i-tought-its-not-that-heavy one.

If someone asked : Why not all the problems? Dont you have a best friends that will listen?

I would say, i dont have one that i trust enough to burden that with me. Everyone have their own life burden, its must be hard to have another people burden. Except for those who have a big enough heart, of course. And that kind of people is hard to find.

I have to steel myself because im a first born. A common ideal of Asian family. And well, even if i tell my bad experience or life stories peoples will start their own stories, cutting me, compare their problems with me, or worst make fun of me.

Eh, i cut our relationship immediately when that happen. Friends or Family, it doesn't matter.

But despite all that, i have a rather good life. I considered myself lucky.

Lets spare my family stories for another time, the song that played in my handphone is my favorite now.

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As i enjoy my songs i looking up to the beautiful evening sky, i see a...

I widen my eyes, shocked.

An iron pole? And other things that i cant describe, its too fast.

Falling down right at me, oh right, this is a construction area, i should be becareful, but its too late.

Its too fast i cant even move. It pierced through my body straight and buried me with another things before i can feel anything, and all turns black.

Some wise people said [human born and die alone] so i dont really have any protest to god, just-

Ah, my unfinished anime, manga and online novels...

My depressed brother... I hope he will have a good life from now on even without me...

My drawing and writing commisions...