I woke up next to Anthony. I get up and hop in his shower and I think back to last night "I fucked two guys" I say to my self. "Im a fucking whore what the hell is wrong with you Viv?" I ask myself.
I get out and walk to my room in a towel Adan wasn't there "thank god" I whisper. I get into sweats and a sweatshirt. I didn't feel like my self and I didn't like my body, I throw my hair up and walk downstairs slowly. I see the note to self white board in the kitchen and I decided to write to myself.
Vivian god damn your a fucking whore two guys one night? Might as well be a prostitute and get something out of it! I'm disappointed and dissatisfied in you Vivian...ugh just kys...
I finish and put sincerely Viv. I finish and read it over and over again. I see the glasses me and Adan drank out of I take one and throw it at the wall and scream I sit on the floor and cry. Soon I feel arms around me "Don't touch me!" I yell "Viv stop!" I hear Jake "No if you keep touching me I might fuck you because I'm a fucking Whore Bag and I evidently like to fuck two guys in one night so why not just admit it now Vivian fucking Lucinda is a mess and a whore bag that should move to prostitution so she can get something out of it" I say "Viv..." he says "admit it Jake I'm a whore" I tell him "Viv stop talking about yourself like that" he tells me as he sits on the floor. "Jake I had sex with Adan and Anthony last night, yeah Adan's attractive but I'll never see him in a relationship way and Anthony of course I still love the kid I thought it would last and if I could make it up with hard core sex I would, and I'm pretty sure Anthony doesn't even want to talk to me anymore because I'm a whore bag to him. Adan was just a distraction and it makes me feel worse he was even that because I used him and that also makes me a whore." I finish "so what your confused in yourself and that's okay I'm pretty sure Adan understands and Anthony doesn't hate you he can keep telling himself that but it wouldn't work" he says, I nod and lean my head on him. Soon I get up and walk to my room.
It's later in the day and I hear a knock on my door. "Come in" I say as I turn and see Anthony, "hi" I say nervously. "I wanna talk to you" he tells me, I nod in response. "So what was on the note to self board under your name?" "My note to myself hint the board" I say "you're not a whore" he says bluntly. "Yeah right says the 1 of the 2 guys I fucked last night" I said. He shakes his head. "Who's was better?" He asked "Anthony...? Really?" I say "well I wanna know my competition" He says. "There is no competition" I tell him "okay then just one question? Who did you better?" He asked "Trujillo that's the same question" I say "whoooo?" He says being a child "you..." I say he smiles and kisses me and leaves. I lay there shocked "what the fuck?!" I say I hear him laugh. "Anthony!" I laugh too and walk out my room, I follow him downstairs and he lifts me over his shoulder and I start to laugh more. He puts me on the counter and goes to the fridge. I sit with my legs crossed "Anthony?" I ask curiously "yes?" He responds "did you ever see us getting back together" I ask...
