I can't understand myself lately , I don't know what I am feeling now but my heart is aching like he can't take it anymore , my brain is begging to leave ; every part of my body gave up on me and my love but, how can i let go of my everything? How can i let go of my soul? Without him i can't do it, I can't do life without him !! Why can't they understand!! Someone said it before "It's amazing how someone can break your heart, but you still love them with all the little pieces." I didn't thought while reading it while i was young that will come a day that i will be crying feeling every word of this sentence. I feel my self pathetic and like every thing is worthless
I can't do it anymore.
To my heart, I am sorry for the pain that stings you, and makes you feel like I am pouring salt right onto your open wounds. I am sorry for the doubt that plagues you; the doubt that makes you feel like love is a risk that's no longer worth taking. I feel like it's my fault. I tried for a really long time to protect you; I built a wall as high as those that rise up around castles, strong and thick enough to keep a tempest of emotions . I promised you that I would keep you safe, that I wouldn't let harm come your way, that no one could get in unless we really wanted him to -- I guess you are disappointed now
I will never stop apologizing for the harm I caused for you my precious organ.
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Tacenda
ФанфикTACENDA (n.) Things better left unsaid. We carry this things inside of us.that no one else can see.they hold us down like anchors And drown us out at sea. It's always about me and you, one day you will be able to read all my thoughts. ~Your Person
