For some reason when i edit the story the whole chapter is there. But when i fead it, it only shows up to oral sex... Plz send help
Sex, sexual intercourse? The ol' f*ckaroo?
(ive decided to take maybe a more approachable way to this subject i hope its less like a questuionare)
I feel like this should be talked about more. I read alot of books on wattpad that include what writers call smut?? I think? There is a bit of a difference between sex itself and the sex we read on the pages.
I honnestly feel like its mostly about the female of the book loosing thier virginity or looking at the character as submissive ya know? Dont get me wrong, its nice to read 😉, but they all seem the sameish, similar aspects to the scene, not cliche or anything just alot of similarities between them.. I tell you what, when i lost my virginity its wasnt the most amazing experience.
The books say its fricking amazing. I say, it wasnt that romantic or sexy or whatever. When i lost mine, it was with my then and current boyfriend. The sex lasted for about 12mins, it was all about him amd i didnt really feel much ngl. I was just starting to kinda enjoy it when he came and then after that he put his clothes back on and told me to put mine back on saying
"im sorry but when i see you naked after sex i feel really disgusted"
i know it sounds really mean, i was upset when he said it to me and it wad really upsetting, it made me feel ugly and used and like a toy. I explained that to him and he said he'd try his best to get used to seeing me naked after sex.
P. S hes now used to seeing me naked after sex and couldnt care less if i put clothes on or not 😊.
Loosing my virginity wasnt much of a deal to me, i dont have a religion or anything restraining me about sex at first it was, for about a week, and it was kinda like eh yeah i had sex not much of a deal and maybe i think that because it wasnt that great itself.
I find that oral sex is better for me. It give me more satisfaction and pleasure it dosent have to be just eating me out, it can be just little kisses down my legs or down my back, its not alot of effort and it makes me feel (i think worshiped is the right word?) worshiped. But. Just him putting his c*ck in me dosent satisfy me alot unless he gets balls deep in me and after a while it starts to hurt.
I think because im so young that my sexual feelings arent guite developed yet you know? Im only 17, im still short so i havent had much of a growth spurt. I am thicc tho and i got dem tiddies too.
Sometimes i think its because i cut my vagina open when i was little while falling on a fence. I was jumping the fence at my friends house and she tickled me from behind and i slipped and fell straight on the fence, on my p*ssy i tell you what i broke my hymen doing that and sliced it on the inside and now have a horrid scar. I never told my parents as i was super embarrassed so i just left it to heal without getting it stiched so 😐 yeah.
Maybe i broke some nerves doing that?
Or maybe everything we see and read or hear about sex is totally incorrect?
Idk please tell me your stories and give me a lil information so i know that maybe im not the only one that has trouble feeling the fireworks during sex?!
Update:
Me and my boyfriend did the dirty this weekend. I had talked to him about my problem and he was really helpful. I did get to feel something. Not like fireworks, but more like a warmth spread across my pelvic area just underneath my skin. It didnt last long because he stopped mid way not realising. But atleast i felt something right?
I came across this website a youtuber recommended and this was really helpful. (its a porn site) it helped me understand the female aspect of porn you know? Not just focused on the males orgasm but the females pleasure at the same time and it was something i could really appreciate it.
Here is the link to the vid i watched.. Idk if im allowed to post it but alg.
https://www.bellesa.co/video?id=1757/homemade-goodness
