At night is when I finish my homework and talk to people who call me there friend. I believe them when they do because I want to be friends with everyone.
When I finish my homework we all have group conversations for another hour then go to sleep telling eachother goodnight and not to let the bed bugs bite.
If only they knew bugs never bit me only the demons in my head.
I lay in my bed in the middle of the night staring at my ceiling in the darkness thinking about everything that happened today.
No one said they hated me but I felt like I got weird looks for eating during lunch.
Maybe I should stop I'm fat anyways.
"Name all of your flaws to yourself."
The demon in my head told me.
I named them all out loud
1.) I'm fat.
2.) I'm ugly.
3.) I'm stupid.
4.) I'm so needy being sad all the time.
5.) I'm a pathetic worthless piece of trash.
I hate what I've become.
All I do is lay in bed at night and cry because I know I'm not good enough.
I count all my flaws and feel worse about myself each day.
At night, is when the demons come lurking in the back of my mind.
That's when I'm alone but then again I always am and always will be.
