I go through my day all over again.
People pretend to like me and I pretend I'm okay.
A new boy came today though, he looked different from everyone else, but in a good way. He sits next to me in the back of every class. His name is Trevor.
He was brown hair with blue eyes. He told me I was pretty and I wish I could believe him but I know he was lying.
During lunch is when he came up to me.
"Do you want to go to the movies with me um maybe you know if you c-can?" he stuttered slightly blushing.
"Aweee." All the girls at the table squealed. I really REALLY wanted to say yes but once he realized just how useless and pathetic I am be won't even want to talk to me anymore.
"I'm sorry but no I'm just, I don't even know you." I told him.
His hopeful face fell and I instantly felt worse. Not only do I make myself sad but I do the same to everyone around me. This is why I didn't want to get too involved with my friends and have a boyfriend because I know I would just let them down because I'm not perfect.
And I never will be
