Months had came to pass.
We went back to our old us.
No. Not what you were thinking.
We went back to our same old friendship.
Ako? Unrequited.
I'm contented for having him this close, I never expected for more.
I'm contented for being with him, having him as my bestbuddy.
I'm happy. but id on;t get myself...Happier
"Hoy!Alessandria! Tulala ka nanaman" habang ikinakaway kaway niya ang kanyang mga kamay sa tapat ng mukha ko
"'Di ah, may naalala lang" saka ako bumalikwas ng upo at nag-aakmang kukuha ng pagkain
"Ano ba 'yan Jash! inubos mo nanaman" bumalik nalang ako ulit sa dati kong pwesto
"Lalim kasi ng iniisip mo e, Oi! Alice may naalala ako" Sabi niya sabay tabi sa pagkakahiga ko
"Nalala ko yung first love mo nung high school, si Owen yung lagi mong ikinekwento sa'kin lalo na pag nandito tayo
'Yan nanaman siya, mapang-asar. Nandito kami ngayon sa bakanteng lote sa likod ng bahay namin, sa ilalim ng malaking puno at nakahiga sa damuhan
"Hay nakoo..Tama na Jash, naka-move -on na ko dun, wala na yun no, tagal tagal na e!" pagsasabi ko naman ng totoo, e simula't sapul palang naman siya na e, sinasabi ko lang yun para naman may masabi ako sakanya t di makapaghinala
"E ikaw naman? matagal-tagal na rin nung huli kang nagsbi tungkol sakanya? Himala ata e, Ano? kamusta na?" pag-iiba ko ng usapan at nag-iba ang ekspresyon na gumuhit sakanyang mukha. Bitterness,
Simula kasi nang umagang yon, wlaa na siyang nabanggit tungkol sakanya, 'di na rin niya ito sinubukang balikan at kausapin manlang, nagpalit na rin ng sim si Jash at blinock siya sa Facebook, at lahat ng social connections na may kinalaman sakanya e, binura narin niya.
"I don't know" mariin siyang nakatitig sa kawalan habang sinasabi ang mga katagang iyon
"Alice...How are you? His question struck me
I'ts been years since he last asked me that question, it's been a long time since he last asked me about how am I doing, for the past three years since our senior high, Jashel was full of her. Lahat ng ikkwento niya, about sakanya, lahat ng sasabihin niya, about sakanya. I was also so full of her, Jashel had a lesser time bonding with me simula ng main-love siya dun sa babaeng 'yun, He never thought about me simula ng dumating siya sa buhay ni Jash. He never ask me what's happenning in my life this last few years and now, he's asking me..How am i?
I'm not against her. Sa totoo nga niyan, ako ang number 1 fan nila e, unang supporter sa realationship nila. At kung masaya sakanya si Jash.Masaya na rin ako
"Seriously Jash? I'm not fine" I look up as tears filling up my sight won't fall
"Sorry Alice, Sorry. Since I've known her, I've never been a friend to you in those times. Sorry" In that moment he held me in his arms, then tears ran down my face
"Now. Tell me, what's the problem?" Care was filling up his eyes when I looked at him
"My problem is..you Jash....You are my problem since then. And my main problem here is myself, I tried my best to avoid this feeling, believe me. I tried my best to avoid this raging feeling that I've been feeling for you, pero hindi ko magawa Jash! Ang tagal kong naghintay para mawala 'to pero...Wala talaga! Ayaw...Nasasaktan na ko nang sobra, siguro ngayon 'di ko na talaga maikakaila...Jash Adriel..for the long years that I've been with you..I loved you..and still..I'm loving you until now..Sorry Jash."
Sa pagakakataong iyon..parang nawala ang matagal nang nakadagan sa aking puso.
Isa nalang ang ikinakatakot ko, ang pagkasira ng pagkakaibigan namin.
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