Poems

War of the Heart

This feeling that I have

Has always been there;

A feeling of guilt,

Loss and despair.

A constant battle

Raging deep within

A battle between

Being loved and loving...

This guilt that I carry,

Will never be gone

Not until I have admitted

What I had done

This feeling of loss

Would never leave

Not until my heart

Would believe

This despair I've felt

From the day things with you ended,

Would never be dealt with

Not until I have accepted

That I have truly lost you

That you will never be mine

I know this for it is true

And I will suffer till the end of time

(But then again....)

A constant battle

Plays in my heart

A battle that could

Never keep us apart

I lose everytime

And you always win

This goes on forever

It always did

I constantly ask myself

' What should I do?'

But I could do nothing

For my heart is with you

I pleaded for you to let me go

You shook your head

As always,

You told me ' No. '

A constant battle

Will soon be over

Im scared to decide

Whether to fight or surrender

Why do you hold me

Like Im all-so-fragile

When the way you act

Is as if you are vile

I broke your heart

I once did

This is what makes me guilty

I truly admit

With eyes cast down,

You left me there

Heartbroken, you left town,

As I cry in despair

I did not wish

For things to fall apart

Nor even to hurt you

And break your precious heart

As I felt at loss

Like an empty shell

You came back

And here in my heart you dwell

A constant battle

Is about to be won

It seemed like forever

But its almost done

You came back for revenge

You told me so

This is what I was scared of

This was what you promised me long ago

You shackled my heart

Like you once did

But now it was intentional

You planned all of it

I resisted your attacks

But you gripped me tighter

I tried to break free

But you were stronger

I asked you to let go

You only held me tighter

I resisted and you told me,

"No. You are mine forever."

Tears from my eyes, threatened to fall

You wiped them away

You caressed my cheeks and looked at me tenderly

You then whispered,"Please , stay..."

My eyes widened ,hearing your tone be filled with desperation

My heart raced but fear was there in my eyes

But at the same time, my eyes showed a glint of confusion

I asked you, 'Is this one of your lies?'

You shook your head

Your face was completely red

You hugged me tight

I was shocked after what you said

A constant battle

Is on its climax

I can feel it

I can almost relax

You told me this,

"I love you"

You held me tighter and added,

"Once did. Still do."

Words are not needed

To convey what I feel.

I smiled at you

I asked, "Are all of these real?"

You nodded and answered,"Yes it is.

You never left my heart

You were always there

From the very start."

I couldnt wait

Not any longer

I kissed you and said,

"This is the start of forever."

A constant battle

has been stopped

For the two parties

Choose to love

A constant battle

It was before

Now it is only love

Love for now and forevermore.

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A/N: WHat do you think?

Im back! Im sorry I hvent written in a while. I had to take time to look for a new inspiration in writing sinc eI lost my other inspiration .

What do you think?