ive never seen my dad cry.
im scared.
i don't want to lose him
i've always known that i'd lose him sooner or later — he's not the youngest or the healthiest... but like.... seeing him like that is not something i'm used to.
it's dawned on me that
he might not walk me down the aisle when i get married. dance the father daughter dance with me at my wedding. hold his grandchild from my part .... my kid(s) won't know their grandfather....
so many memories that he just probably wont be there for and there's nothing i can do to stop it.
im scared.
so scared.
