Infinity| S&C2

Chapter 2- NO!💜

A/N: Flashbacks/ past time is in italic.
TW: Death, torture and string cutting.
Lotor POV

Ugh...
It's my birthday.
I don't even want to get up today.

Just the thought that my star will be dead before midnight...

And it will all be my fault.

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Acxa wished me a happy birthday as we were on our way to school and I tried to fake a smile...
She wouldn't understand. She was born without a soulmate... She doesn't have a string to cut.
But I do.
I have to kill my soulmate.
I have to kill the love of my life.
I have to kill the person I love the most in this whole world.
I have to fucking murder Asterin.

As the class ends I run out of the classroom and into a men's bathroom soo that Asterin can't find me. I can't face her... Not today.
I feel soo guilty...
She deserves better than me. Better than my mess of life.

The rest of the day goes on like this, me running to the bathroom as soon as the bell rings. I don't even eat lunch. I don't deserve food.

The last bell rings and I run. I pass Asterin's locker and quickly leave a note. "I'm sorry".
I run into the car that is already waiting for us. I wait a bit for Acxa and then the driver stars driving us back to the mansion.
As we do, we are informed that today dinner is a bit earlier because of my "birthday party".

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I get dressed up. I'm nervous as fuck. I don't want to cut my string. I...I don't want to... I don't want to kill her... I feel my cheeks getting wet and feel my knees going week as I feel on the floor.
I just want to see her one last time...

I look at the clock.
I still have half an hour before inspection.
But is too dangerous.
But I need to...

Fuck it.
I wipe off my wet cheeks and stand up.

I need her.

And she doesn't deserve to be treated like shit.

I magically travel to her house and ring the doorbell.
Her mother opens the door.

-Lotor, my dear! Happy birthday!
-Thank you, Mrs. Peters. Is Asterin home?
-Yes, she is in her bedroom. Asterin, dear, Lotor is here!
-Thank you very much- I bow and politely kiss her hand.

I run to Asterin's bedroom. She is sitting in her bed with a box wrapped in gift wrap at her feet.

-Hey. What happened?
-I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry...

I start to cry again and she runs to hug me. I start feeling a bit better but the guilt comes all back.

-Your family, again?

I just nod in response. She doesn't ask more questions.
I try to calm down. I try and try but more and more tears come out.

We spent a lot of time hugging. Just enjoying each other's presence.
She gave me a birthday present. A pair of matching rings. One for me and one for her.

-Thank you so much, Asterin.
-It's nothing, really.
-It's the best present I have ever received. - I answered.

I kissed her. She is so precious. I can't lose her.

-I love you, my star.
-I love you, my moon.

I glance at the clock on her nightstand.
FUCK!
I have ONE MINUTE BEFORE INSPECTION.

-I...I have to go... I'm sorry.

I give her one last kiss and run.
I magically travel to my room and straighten my clothes.

10 seconds.

I run through the halls and arrive just in time.

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-Today is a special day.- My father said, raising his glass.- To Lotor and his coming of age.

After dinner, we went to a special room in the castle that I had never seen before.
It was just me and father. In a room that only had a table and a pair of ceremonial scissors resting on it.

This is it.
I'm going to lose her...
I'm going to become the monster my father wants me to be.
This isn't right.
I'm not going to do this.

I have to save her.

-Well, son, it's time.
-No.
-What did you say?
-I said, no. I'm not going to cut my string.
-You don't have a choice.-he laughs. -Obey to the orders your King gave you and cut your string.
-With all due respect, Sir... I'm not cutting my string.

My father paused for a moment, thinking.- You have met her... Of course. Your brain is poised with love.
-Yes, I have met her. And I prefer not being in this family than killing her.- I declare.

What is the worst thing that can happen? Me being disowned and kicked out?

Little did I know...

-Guards! Come and take him!

What?...

I was chained to the dungeons. The scissors sitting next to me.
I was alone.

Until I wasn't.

She entered the dungeons. More like was thrown into the dungeons.
But she wasn't alone.
Her mother and her little brother are also thrown into this dark place.

-Lotor!- My star runs to me. -What happened?
-I'm sorry...-Is the only thing I'm capable of saying.

Four guards enter the room. And then my father.

-Chain them.- The king ordered.

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They scream in pain. I can't even look. I don't have the courage. But I can hear them scream.
They are being tortured mercilessly.

When I finally have the courage to look... Asterin's little brother is already passed out... And her mother is almost giving up as well... They are stained with blood. Blood everywhere. And it's all my fault.

-NOOOO!- I scream- STOP!

-You know, there is a way for you to end their suffering.- My father said.

I looked at the scissors.

-I'm sorry, Asterin.

I cut the string.

My star disintegrated in dust. And the guards shot the little boy and his mother.

They are dead.
And the world is grey.

And I just feel...
Numb.

A/N: *sips*