Lost Girl

Prologue

"How is it so easy for you to be kind to people?" he asked.

Milk and honey dripped from my lips as I answered.

"Because people have not been kind to me."

Not until you, my lost boys, came.

I was always there with you. I was the one giving you handkerchief whenever one of you cries. I was the one who always give you advices.

Was. It's all in the past now and it's all because of me.

I cried as I remember the days when I was with them. Nakakainis naman. Lagi ko na lang silang naaalala tapos iiyak lang naman ako ng iiyak.

Tama lang naman siguro yung ginawa ko diba? Kasi gusto ko lang naman na maging masaya sila.

They're happy now, I guess. Hindi ko man sila kasama kagaya ng dati pero palagi naman akong nakasubaybay sa kanila.

Namimiss ko na sila. Lalong lalo na sya. Sobra.

Pinili ko ito hindi dahil gusto ko, pinili ko ito dahil mahal ko sila at hindi ko hahayaang may mangyaring masama sa kanila. I chose this because it's for the better.

And I chose to let go of my happiness.

Maybe sacrificing is indeed embracing one and letting go of the other.

Isa pa, nawalan na ako at sinisi ko pa rin ang sarili ko sa pagkawala niya.