Smile...

Impresstion...

"I don't think anyone really knows how to start",I said with a deep sigh and took a drag on my cigaret."So here it goes...."

It was a cold, windy day. The leaves from the tree were starting to fall...I took a long drag on my cigaret but was startled by the feel of a hand on my head."huh?" I said in surprise.

Then I was met by jesses smiling face."well hey little missy"He said as he took a leave off my head."What are you doing walking around all by yourself when you know it's about time for the gang fight?"

I sighed then dropped my cigarette butt."Not much just trying to get away." He looked worried, then tried to talk but stuttered."was..w..was" He sighed can calmed himself."Was it your old man?"He looked very angry when I stared at the ground.

My old man was a drunk old fart. He likes to hit me around most of the time,but I didn't care I was used to it. My mom had walked out on him when I was 7. He wouldn't let her take me then. I found that funny, when she left he was holding me balling he's eyes out. I guess he cared back then... I found that hilarious!

I sighed and turned fast to slap his hand away.

He laughed and grabbed my hand before I could hit." Nice try missy. But when I ask if it was your old man you answer!! Don't take that lightly! Common July! What we gonna do if the fuzz show at your house and take the old fart away as you get pulled away in an ambulance!! They'll put you in a home! Far away from us!?" I was stunned by the anger in his eyes. I guess I must have looked scared or something cuz He loosened his grip and gave me a hug.

Not realizing I put my face on his chest and stayed there for about a minute." Your warm." I laughed as I snuggled myself in his embrace. By the time we came back to reality and we both shoved each other away; we were as red as the jacket I had on.

I lit a cigarette and handed him one, he took it and I gave him a light.

By the time we got home it was midnight. I didn't want to go home!

I sighed and started walking home."night Jess thanks for walking me home."

I gave a slight grin."Hey July! If you wanna you can stay at my house tonight. Well only if you wanna..." I laughed and walked in.

Jess lived with his two brother,Louise and zac. They where nice people...Louise was about 19 and zac was 16. Jess and zac were twins. This was only the second time I had met them and from what I saw they were kinda shocked I was there. I stuck out my toung,they laughed and I light a cigaret. It had been only a week since me and the old fart had shown out of no where."how did you meet Jess any way missy?" Zac asked lighting a cigaret. My first meeting of Jess was that Monday I had moved here and I "crashed" one of their gang fights. "It's a long story but here it goes."I took a drag on my cigaret. " It was that Monday I moved here,I planned to take a look around. Then I ran into some guys and one of them thought it be funny to try to grab me,that's when I "crashed" the gang fight. I pulled a blade and so did they. I got banged up but they got it worse." The guys laughed and I threw away my cigaret bud. Then continued,"So after a fight I was thirsty so I went to the drug store and got myself a coke. When I walked out I saw the gang fight and thought it be fun to stick around and watch. When it was all over your gang had won and you all went home to gets sticked up and celebrate. That's when Jess came out of the lot and tripped and fell on me. So after that I guess we're buds." I laughed and dropped down on the couch." So Louise if you don't mind can she stay tonight?" He pulled Jess into the kitchen to talk. But it was still easy to hear what they were saying even though they tried to talk softly.

"So what's her deal?" Louise asked questioning Jess." Seems things at home aren't so good right now..." He replied with a sigh. Louise looked over at me and I wiggled my eye brows. "Were you in a fight missy?"asked Zac looking concerned.

I sighed and looked at the ground,he slowly reached over and rubbed a cut on my face." N..o..no"I finally said with a sigh. He reached over and wiped a tear off my cheek and gave me a soft smile and hug,then said very very slowly"It's ok now...your ok now...they can't hurt you anymore...." By that time I was balling my eyes out in the arms of some one that promised i was safe now. I sniffed and pushed him away. Wiping a tear I lit a cigarette and laid back. Then all of a sudden Jess plopped down right by me, put his arm around me and pulled me into his arms." Go to sleep will ya. We have a long day tomorrow."

In the morning I was woken up by the smell of bacon and eggs. As I tried to open my eyes I overheard some of the guys talking. "Jess what's going on with her! When I touched her cut last night it was fresh. Like she only got it a hour ago. Jess tell!!" Demanded Zac. "It's not my place to tell..." Jess mumbled. I got up and walked into the room. "If you wanna know i'll tell, it's not like I care... My old man likes to hit me around." I sighed and lit a cigaret. After that the room was quiet. "Well anyway thanks for letting me crash at your place." I took a long drag on my cigarette and turned to leave." Missy stop!" Zac demanded. I smiled with cold eyes and he punched me in the face. I laughed, and pick up my cigarette that had fallen from my mouth. "Let us help we're here for you..." He mumbled about to cry. "You care? I find that really funny! You try to help and you don't even know my name!" I snapped angrily and rushed out the door. I was so mad I got into a fight with men twice my size.

Later that night I laid in the old lot Where I first met Jess... He was a tall slim boy with short brown hair with green eyes, he had his ears gauged. Zac would look the same but his hair was longer and he had a scar under his chin. Louise had short blond hair and blue eyes, he was tall and muscular. Then there was Mark,Carter,and Sidney. Mark was a short kinda chubby 17 year old with red hair and brown eyes. Carter was a slim tall shy 16 year old with black hair and almost black eyes. Sidney... Now Sidney...she was a real beauty. She had long black hair with hazel eyes,she was lovely.... I touched my lip softly then flinched. It was bleeding a little from my lip ring stabbing me when Zac punched me. "What a long day." I sighed. "July,That's your name." Jess said sitting down by me with a smile. I laughed and sat up. "So you did know huh... Well any way sorry for the trouble." I smiled lighting a cigaret."Zac was serious when he said he wanted to help." I looked surprised then noticed a tear running down my face. He slowly wiped it away and put a band aid on my face. "Thx" I giggled. "Any time" he said ruffling my hair.

It was about 10:30 by the time we decided to get up and walk home. It was only a 3 minute walk from the lot to jesses house." Bye have a good night." He said yawning. "No... I don't like goodbyes..." I turned around and waved. "See you later." I mumbled and ran home.

The next morning their gang met up to go see a movie. Jess had invited me to go but I wasn't really in the mood. I don't like people. "Oh well than I'll just stay here with you. If that's ok?" He smiled. I just stared at him not changing my emotionless face. "If you wanna. I don't mind." He smiled and the rest of the gang walked off to go see the movie. It was quiet."hey.. Why don't you join our gang?" I was startled at the sound of his voice. I sighed and started to try to speak." Well... I... Umm.. Uh... I had a gang once but... They..... Their dead." I said with cold eyes and an emotionless face. "Oh I'm sorry, I didn't mean to bring up bad memories..." He replied in a shaky voice. "It's fine I don't care." I said lighting a cigarette .