The Heartache of a Friendship

Chapter 5

I exited the plane after a long, tiring flight and the first thing I did was text Ika saying I'd landed safely. It was now dark out and I just wanted to go to bed. I got my bag and called for a taxi. I got to my new apartment but it was very small and simple since I couldn't afford a bigger one at the moment. The apartment was already furnished as it was one I'd gotten through the school. It was very plain. Lots of beige, brown and cream. If Ika was here, she's flip. She's very creative and colorful but I haven't got a clue so my apartment will be staying dull. I dropped my bag on the floor and went straight to bed. I tried to sleep but it was strange not having Ika to hold. Instead, my mind tormented me with my memories.

Once I'd walked away from Ika, I couldn't hold back the tears anymore. They flowed like a waterfall, my eyes burning. I wanted to run back to her and tell her I was staying and that everything would be fine but I couldn't. I had to follow my dream and pay the price that comes with it. I turned back to face her and waved goodbye. The tears streaming down her face tore me apart. I'm such a shitty friend. I forced a smile as I turned on my heel to follow my dream but tear my friend apart.

Even on the plane, the tears didn't stop staining my face. I cried my heart out but trying to be discrete about it because I didn't want the whole plane to know my heart was breaking. I must've cried myself to sleep since the next thing I remember is waking up to the plane beginning its descent.

Then, Ika's face popped in mind. Fist she smiled, that beautiful smile that seemed to make the whole world brighter. I got lost in the shine of her eyes. Hope and beauty. I would drown in her gorgeous green eyes, getting hypnotized. Remembering every memory I had with her. Good and bad. Then her smile turned to a frown. Her eyes began watering and her hope turned to pain and heartache. Her eyes glistened with tears and I wanted to run to her and hug her. I began running to her, screaming, begging her to come to me. I screamed and screamed until my voice let out. No matter how much I ran to her, she didn't get any closer. In fact, she seemed to get further away. I blubbered stumbled until I fell down a hole. I kept falling into blackness. Wailing more and more as I fell deeper and deeper. Trying to reach Ika but just couldn't.

I shot up gasping, panting, crying. I wanted nothing more than to see and hold Ika and tell her all about my nightmare but I couldn't. She was just gone. I tried composing myself but nothing I tried seemed to work. It was true. No matter how much I wanted to get to her, I wouldn't be able to. Damn it.