A Dream

Minsan ba hiniling mong may magmahal sayo ng tapat at walang hanggang?  

Minsan ba naisip mo na karapat dapat kang mahalin?  

Minsan ba nangarap kang makita ang taong magmamahal sayo ng totoo?  

Minsan ba nasagi sa isipan mong bakit walang nagmamahal sayo na matino at di ka sasaktan? 

Pwes, kung ako tatanungin n'yo lage ko yung naiisip yun. Sometimes, naiisip ko baka I'm not meant for love at wala talaga akong karapatan na maging masaya. Maybe because I've been hurt so much that I'm afraid to love again cause I might collapse and won t be able to stand again. Have you ever felt na parang ginawa mo naman lahat para sa taong mahal mo pero wala pa rin pala kasi di n'ya napansin yun.  

All I ever dream is to love and be love in return pero siguro di ko pa oras ngayon but how I wish and dream that, it will come sooner than I thought. I, myself want to be love din naman eh, sino namang hindi di ba?  

And this how my story will start, by dreaming to love again and be love in return without breaking my heart into a thousand pieces.  

Chapter 1: A better Me  

"Good morning madlang people" sigaw ko habang pababa sa hagdanan ng bahay namin  

 "Wow, good mood yata si ading ngayon?" tanong ng ate ko at ading ang tawag n'ya sa akin kasi bunso ako  

"Well, dapat lang no, it s a new day and a new me" pagmamalaki ko, pero sa totoo lang I hide my sad self sa ate ko kasi ayoko ko naman na mag alala pa s'ya sa akin. Alam n'yang araw araw akong umiiyak after that terrible heartbreak I had one year ago.  

"Weee? Di nga? Kagabi nga umiiyak ka pa" sagot ni ate  

"Kagabi lang yun ate noh, kakapagod ng maging bitter. I want to be happy na rin and be a better me" sagot ko kay ate  

"If that's the case then I'm happy for you. Sige kumain kana at baka mahuli ka pa sa interview mo" sabi ni ate sa akin  

"Ay, oo nga pala, salamat sa pag remind ate" sabay upo sa upuan sumubo ng pagkain  

 "Bilisan mo na jan ha, mauna na rin ako baka mahuli pa ako sa work ko" sabi n'ya sabay labas sa pintuan ng bahay naming  

"Babye ate, ingats ka" sigaw ko  

"Ikaw din, wag ka ng gumala ha. Umuwi ka after ng interview mo" sigaw n'yang pabalik sa akin  

Before we continue the story of my life, I ll introduce muna myself hehehhe . I'm Kristhiana Hierra Montenegro, 21 y/o, registered nurse pero jobless hahahaha. Oh well, kaya nga di ba meron akong interview kasi naghahanap ako ng work. Kung napansin n'yo kami lang ng ate ko yung nag uusap kanina, kasi nasa abroad yung mama namin. And we're all nurses hahahah kakatawa noh kaming tatlo ng mama, at ate ako ay parehong nurses. Well, kagustuhan kasi ng mom naming yun kaya pinagbigyan na namin. Pero ang gusto talaga ni ate eh Accountancy samantalang ako ay Architecture. Di naman kami mahirap, di rin kami mayaman siguro average lang kami kasi nakapagtapos naman kami ng pag aaral kahit si mama lang nagpapaaral sa amin. Kung itatanong n'yo kung saan ang papa ko, he died 10 years ago, nagka accident kasi sa pinagtratrabahuan n'ya sa abroad dati kaya ayan si mama ang natira sa amin. My father was an engineer, and we're proud to call him dad. Meron akong nag iisang ate at s'ya ay si Karmela Grace Montenegro, she s 24 y/o at nurse din s'ya pero meron na s'yang trabaho. Malamang naman diba kasi nga kakasabi n'ya lang kanina na mahuhuli na s ya sa work. Sa ******* hospital s ya nagtratrabaho pero kahit minsan di ko naisip na dun din mag apply kasi mas gusto ko magkahiwalay kami hahhhaa. Mahilig kasi kaming magbangayan kaya mas okay yung magkaiba kami ng pagtrarabahuan.  

AT THE JOB INTERVIEW  

 "Good morning Ms. Montenegro" sabi nung lalaking nakaupo sa office chair  

"Good morning too Sir" sagot ko naman, dapat magalang ako  

"So, Ms. Montenegro, why did you choose to become a nurse?" tanong n'ya  

 "I choose to become a nurse Sir, because nursing is not just a profession, for me it is a calling that everybody can t do. Being a nurse is not an easy task, first you have to be patient either with the patient or his/her family members. You also need to be approachable in times of their needs and give them the utmost care you can offer. For some, they took up nursing cause when you go abroad your salary is higher than the other professions, maybe. But for me, I took it up because my mom said so, and later on I realized it is something I want to do and pursue." Sagot ko sa tanong n ya  

"So you really don t like nursing at first?" tanong n'ya kaagad  

"Well, you can say that Sir, but from the moment I started caring for the patients during our internship duties. I realized it s something I wished and love to do." Sagot ko naman  

" If you were given a chance to specialize an area, where would it be?" tanong n'ya ulit  

"It would be the OB/Nicu Sir"  

"Why?" tanong n'ya na may halong curiousity  

"Well, first of all I love babies I don t know why but seeing them being born gives me joy. And caring for them like the way I would for my future children is something I really look forward to. Seeing a newborn, is like seeing a miracle happening in front of you." Sagot ko with a smile  

"Well, that s all Ms. Montegro. Will let you know if your hired." sabi n'ya sabay tawag sa secretary n'ya  

"Thank you sir" sabi ko sabay alis sa opisina n'ya  

Pagkatapos ng madugong job interview ko. Hahhahahh exagg lang noh, pero na tense talaga ako nun noh kaloka. Umuwi na rin ako kaagad kasi nga sabi ni ate wag ng gumala hahhhah, isa pa napagod din ako mas mabuti pang matulog nalang sa bahay.  

BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP  

Wow meron pa palang nagmamahal sa akin sabi ko habang babasahin ang text  

From: Twin <3  

Twin, pasyal tayo mamaya. Di ka naman busy di ba? Please medyo bored na ako eh. Kakapagod din pumasok eh  

Sira talaga tong kambal ko, ay baka magtaka kayo. Di talaga kami kambal we just call each other twin kasi parang kaming kambal during college days kasi palagi kaming magkasama. Pero, nung 3rd yr. na kami eh lumipat s ya ng paaralan kaya minsan nalng kami magkasama. At na behind din pala s ya kasi sakitin yan eh kaya palaging nasa hospital, pero graduating na s'ya this year. Her name is Jane Marie Mendoza, she's 22 y/o, oo mas matanda s'ya sa akin hhahhhhahaa at nursing student s ya.  

To: Twin<3  

Okay, pero magpapaalam muna ako ky ate ha. Baka magalit yun pag di ako nagpaalam eh.  

BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP  

From: Twin<3  

Okay!!! Heheheh kasama pala natin si Dee at meron s'yang friends na ipapakilala sa atin.  

Hay naku eto naman, meeting Dee's friends. Well wala naman masama dun, making friends lang naman. Gora na nga minsan lang din naman akong gumala eh. Well si Dee pala ay isa sa mga close friends namin but her real name is Krystal Dee Gomez, also 22 y/o. Eheheh ako yung bunso sa aming tatlo at Dee and I call each other "Sangai" or "Ngai" kasi my sis call me ading di ba, wala lang trip n'ya akong tawagin deeng kaya naging  Dee na rin minsan hanggang naging "sangai" na or "Ngai"

To: Twin<3  

Okay! Text mo nalang kung saan tayo magkikita.  

BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP  

From:Twin <3  

Okay! Txt u l8r twinams.. muaaaaahhh