Trouble

your words

03/30/19
9:46am

sometimes
i want to be not okay
i have the tendency to stay
for people who couldn't care
i'm just there
vying for a way
to say
how i really feel
but sometimes
saying it out loud
finally makes it real.

and i'm so fucking scared
my lips are impaired
just as my fingertips
i'd tell you if i dared
we're that couple everybody ships
yet here we are, two idiots
not making a move until
it hits
but i'm still
going to sit
around
until our love is in the ground

my blood boils at your words
i'm surprised my heartbeat pounding isn't heard
the sounding of my breath
hitching in my throat
the depth
of your words
cuts through me soul like a sword
if only you
could take your words
like the lord
of all things blue
i can't imagine what you've been through
your words
they strike a nerve
every girl wants to see the curve
of your smile
after only a little while
i wonder
how often do you use this to your advantage?
your words
i wonder
how much damage
you could cause me
if i let you
because your words-
they pause
my rationality
and i can bet you
your words
get you in trouble
your face has met another man's knuckles
if only you could buckle
me down
before i fall
make me feel like your princess, give me a crown
tell me i'm the fairest of them all
that's what you say to every girl, right?
tell me i'm your world
that you'd fight
for me
see?
you know what to say
you're just a boy, with so much power
i wonder what we could be
and i just pray
i don't fall for you anyway
but maybe underneath that glower
you're just a boy
who picks flowers
for the girl he fell for
before she fell from this earth.
you feel like a horrible human
but one day
you want to show a girl her worth.

or maybe
it's just your words
played in simple chords
somehow
melodious
striking
odious
girls hiking
up their skirts
for you
but it hurts
and i wonder if when your words finally become true
if they'll still sound as good
as you always make the lies do