Hi im tamara ronderis. Im 17 years old i have no parents i stay with my nana and my papa. My mom is mia . And my father died. Thats all that i know about my parents. Im in my senior year of highschool and im so ready.
August 15th
This is my last first day of school and im so excited. Ive worked really hard to get to where im at right now. I got out of bed and took a shower i brushed my teeth washed my face and flat iorned my natural hair in a middle part. And did my eyebrows and put on lashes i put on my uniform shirt and my kacky pants and with a blue jean jacket with my retro red jordan 12s. I grabbed my iphone XR and my purse and walked out my room. "Goodmorning nana" i say walking into the kitchen.
"Hey baby, i wont be her later i got to work"she say kissing me walking out the door i walked behind her towards my car.
"Okay love you" i say getting into my vehicle "love you too ".
I got in put on my seat belt and connected to bluetooth i had to go pick up my boyfriend Zachary and my bestfriend Taja. I got zach first he was closets. Me and zach been dating for 5 months and i can honestly say it was the lamest shit ever. He so lame i just cant do it but ion know how to break up with him. "Hey babe" he said getting in the car and typing on his phone. Zachs been cheating on me since we got together Ian stupid.but when i try to leave he hurt me and ion really got time for that. Next stop was my bestie and she was ready sitting outside on the porch and all. "Hey bitch" i said screaming and she got in and laughed "hey u ready for are first last day"she said laughing "yes im ready for new things" i said turning my eyes toward zach. She shook her head and didnt say nothing me and taja been bestfriend for 17 years her mom and my mom was bestfriend so we kind of grew close through that. I arrived to school and parked inside the student parking me and zach walked together. It was still early but everybody was here. Then this black tinted range rover pulled up playing loud ass music. One of the boys got out he immediately caught my attention he was tall a little bit chubby cover in tattoos and had dreds the hung in-front of his face when he flipped them back u could see his light skin cover in tattoos and his teeth covered in goals he was so fine and his friends were too but nothing to be drooling over. He walked up towards the entrance of the school where i was and he looked towards me. I was blushing hard so he walked over by me. I was still next to zach but zach probably didnt even care he was still all in his phone. "Hey ma" the boy walked up licking his lips at me. Man i was weak he so damn fine and got the sexiest fucking voice ever. "Hey im tamara" i said sounding deadr shy " im wakeem"he said looking at me head to toe "yeah wakeem she has a boyfriedn" zach said walking infront of me zach was like 5'5 and wakeem was about 6'7 i wouldnt zach. I walked toward the building cause all zach was gon do was embarrassed me. I got to my locker and put in my code. "Aye what the fuck wrong with u bitch" zach say coming up to me slamming my arm in the locker. It hurted like a bitch and gave me a lil cut. He pushed me toward the locker and slapped me in my face."you all in these niggas faces little ass slut do u know who u fucking with" zach say making me cry i don't like all this tension nor embarrassment "dont cry now hoe"he said kicking me in my stomach."stop please"i let out through crying then he stopped and i Heard a loud ass punch and looked up it was wakeem beating zach ass i seen wakeem homeboys staring at me and wakeem got up and looked at me.he looked at me and didnt say anything just walked away i followed behind him
"What was that"i said looking at him. "You bleeding ma"he said i looked down to see and it was blood coming Down my pants.i was confused, mad and in shock me and zach hD sex with out condoms but im in birth control i walked towards the nurses portable. I opened the door and there was no line so she greeted me. "Hi I'm tamara." I said sticking out my hand as a greeting. "Hi I'm nurse Jenner, so i see you have blood on your pants can u tell me the incidents that has occurred in the last 24 hours" she stated pulling out a clipboard."well today me and my boyfriend got into a physical altercation and he kicked me in my stomach." I say blunt. "Follow me "she said walking towards a room which looked like a ultrasound room . "Sit here and take your clothes off put this on "she said handing me a gown. She walked out the room and i began undressing. Everything was soaked in blood from my draws to pants to bottom of my shirt . After i was done i sat my clothes to the side. "Ready" i said as dr.jenner walked in. She put on gloves and reached for a bottle she squeezed the substance on her hand and rubbed it on my belly. She took the camera and ran it along my stomach."well miss.tamara you were pregnant. Im looking for your baby now."she said going around she took the camera off and pulled put another long camera stick and wrapped it with a bag and put the gel on that. She stuck it up my private and i watch the screen to see my baby . "Well your baby at the bottom and its dead theres no heart beat. Im sorry sweetie" she said. I couldn't do anything but cry. I lost my baby"ima need you to open your legs and push."she said in front of my vagina. I pushed hard 2times and my baby was out their was no cry no nothing i seen her little shriveled up body. She gave me her and i just cried harder. I gave her back my baby and asked could i leave. "Yeah just wipe off and heres some pants and a tank top." I cant believe i lost my child my heart even though i never knew u i know u would've been the star of my life .
